Sherlock221b

Yesterday was a challenge, and I had an anonymous letter telling me to leave. However the first counselling appointment is booked in for next week so that's positive, and I have four possible job...

Last night for over an hour there were people outside protesting, I went to the car this lunchtime and someone was swearing at me and when I drove back in there were others. People don't want me...

I was worried about taking antidepressants, and they have had some side effects, but today I feel pretty hopeless, run up to Christmas, haven't a word from family for a month, and lot longer since I...

I thought they'd help but so far all I've experienced is mood swings, nausea, tiredness and a headache, all of which I gather are sideeffects, I had hatred messages stuck to the car, someone...

I've avoided drugs for all my life now I'm about to go on antidepressants, doctor prescribed them yesterday. Hes arranging therapy/counselling but it could take a while. Meanwhile I've left in limbo...

I'm scared to step outside the house in case any graffiti or something has been out on, but equally I want to know, not sure how much longer I can take this, which is, of course, what those people...

Journal today! I was sitting at tea obviously looking sad as mum said what are you thinking I said I was just missing my children. Have I spoken to them she asked, no as I'm letting them be ready and...

Three entries in one day, must be a bad day - there are people who don't want me living here, and so they are determined to make my life hell. In 7 weeks I've had eggs thrown at me, and the house...

I know I spent time in prison and my wife is hurting and I wish I could take that pain away, and my pension and I wish I could rewind time. But earlier in the year, before I knew we were divorcing,...

I can't sleep, thinking through everything, tried to cheer myself up with amusing or motivational captions on Google,  didn't really work, just so restless and unfocussd , missing family, annoyed...

A morning of contrasts, one aspect is that I 'may' have a job interview in a couple of weeks, for a job I'd love to do, but which would mean my working from an office three hours away, I wouldn't...

I applied for a job a couple of days ago and today had an acknowledgement saying thanks for it, it has been well received and good luck with the interview. I am not sure if to feel that I've told...

Another awkward conversation with mum, she wants me to be here and do most of the things,but she still doesn't get the home question. I said I'd try and do things the way she wanted - there is a...

I've made a lot of job applications in the last few weeks. No interviews yet but yesterday I applied for the one that I think is the best fit, I could do everything on their essential list and most...

I have had four rejections in 48 hours from job applications. Understandable but it's taking its toll. A friend of mum who I look after came yesterday and as I saw her out she said you know your mum...