Sherlock221b

Half way through the morning before writing, have replied to emails though, applied for a job which I won't get, argued and made up with mum and had bizarre dreams that haunt me and I can't write...

Mum makes me feel like I'm worthless and useless telling me to shut up and belittling any ideas I have. I have lost marriage children home work and all I have is a role as a carer for her, but I...

I'm trying to limit my journaling to one entry a day - I don't know what to do with this dreadful pain, this heartbreak, this welling up in tearfulness, this brokenness. I just want to get this pain...

Sleep, appetite, moods, all very erratic. Learning to live with evil, pain, brokenness. Where is goodness healing joy

Be careful what you wish for, I wanted my wife soon to be ex-wife to contact me, and she did today, a very short cursory email and included a letter where I had to pay 100 to a court, very...

It is a truth universally acknowledged that when you feel life can't get any worse it does. Yesterday I recalled proposing, then later remembered baking cakes on 5th November, as 6th is her birthday....

19 years ago today I asked The Most Amazing person to marry me - now I have lost her, and out children and my home and community and job - I'm now caring for an elderly parent and have no idea what...

I have really struggled in the last year, and I'm close to tears most of the time. I'm caring for mum but I tried today to talk to her about needing some counselling and care and she was so...

Tomorrow will be 19 years to the day since I asked the love of my life to marry me, the following day will be her birthday. Why did it all go so wrong?? I still love her but I haven't seen her for 8...

I feel very down - I have applied for a series of jobs and got the first - of many I expect - no thank you. I miss my wife and family and nothing takes away the unutteable pain. I'm a quiz show there...

So last night people who hate me threw eggs at the windows, going to take ages to clean off, job for tomorrow. Mum spoke to a friend, oh yes he's doing ok just the eggs getting him down. Rot - I am...

Today I stepped outside and someone yelled out that's him, with hatred in her voice. I miss my family so much - I left prison three weeks ago and now I feel I have less to live for than when I was...

I don't want here to go into loads of details but basically I'm not coping - full of tears and feeling wretched, missing wife who is divorcing me and children, all my own fault for not facing up to...