New day
I'm scared to step outside the house in case any graffiti or something has been out on, but equally I want to know, not sure how much longer I can take this, which is, of course, what those people who want me out of here want.
Where did it all go so badly wrong? And is there anything I can do to put things right?
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I've stepped out and nothing seems to have happened but if they knew what a state I get into they don't need to, just occasional provocation.
Weird day today anyhow, as I 'may' have a job interview end of next week, so in a fortnight time I could be in exactly the same position as now, preparing to commute, buying a decent computer so I can work from home - not companies preference but possible - planning a move myself close to work, or moving house completely with mum closer to work, who knows.
Now in receipt of an anonymous letter saying I'm not welcome, they wish I'd leave, they are watching me. Not as threatening as I feared nor enough to worry the police about. Just enough to make me feel anxious!
Take a moment. They've changed their tactics. The usual ones did not work, because you stood firm. Continue to stand firm and be polite and positive when outside. You're taking care of the home and property. You are keeping your statements, expressions, and intentions clear and careful.
Hurrah with the job interview!
If it is an anonymous letter, then it shows the person's fear and is NOT your problem. So, you're not welcome, well, it's your mum's house, so you are welcome. They are watching you, so that is protecting you, since they are watching you, then they are not doing anything. I suspect that your anxiety is normal for this type of situation, so you're doing all the right things. Keep on writing in your journal.