racerangel8781

This week I've decided to go back into counseling at the local women's shelter, I've been thinking about it for a long long time and finally convinced myself to call. The woman I was seeing has left...

Over the past week, we have had 4 blowouts from my oh so wonderful husband(sarcasm)! I thought I should document it because well I tend to forget what the fights are even about because most of them...

So today is my 33rd birthday.... Another year passing me by, not really accomplishing anything at all besides being alive and trying to be a good mother. Thats all I have left in me, to survive. He...

Not that it matters and I don't really care just documenting, its nothing new but got a haircut today and came home to be told that it looked hideous and that I looked like a dike. I don't really...

Not to be confused with knowing what i need to do, I just don't feel a lot anymore, i feel i guess in a fog as everyone would put it, just going on day to day, not really having a life, just doing...

So I have been thinking alot and I know what needs to be done. My plan is I'm hoping to leave mid march, I would like to leave today but it just is not possible right now. I work for a family...

Do you know I can't even cry anymore? I can't feel things, I am numb, I can't even react to the abuse because I just don't care. I am an empty person, staring into a dark abyss, I see nothing in my...

I can feel my anger inside every single day, anger at him for what he has done to myself and my son and anger at myself for not being able to do what needs to be done. I just want to scream and...

today he had a huge blow up because my son stayed home sick from school, im sorry i cant send him to school when he is sick and the school would just send him home anyway. no he is not as sick as a i...

This is something that I have to do, if i dont leave my husband, i know i will be miserable for the rest of my life, and who wants to live that way, not me! I'm so sick of the constant put downs and...

I dont even know what to write but i figured i would write something since i haven't in a couple months. Everything is still the same, still with dickhead, some days are better then others but most...

i am so sick of all of this, yes the past month has been nice and quiet and of course he's back now, telling me the laundry needs to be done, the house is a mess when are you going to clean it, mean...

I don't know whats wrong with me lately, one day i think i know what i want the next i have no clue. Being in the relationship for 15 years make it really hard to let go i guess, plus the fact that...

Something just struck me in a post i read, What does it say about you that you prefer to be in an abusive relationship rather than be alone????????????????????Yeah why do i, when i think about that,...

so Im supposed to be leaving on monday, my feelings about that are yeah right, like im ever going to do it. Blah! This week ive been flip flopping alot in how i actually feel, one minute i think he's...