Do you know?

Do you know I can't even cry anymore? I can't feel things, I am numb, I can't even react to the abuse because I just don't care. I am an empty person, staring into a dark abyss, I see nothing in my future. I can not survive this, I am so tired of being unhappy, I'm at a total loss of what to do. I'm so tired of playing nicey nice when all I want to do is run as far away as I can and he's never laid a hand on me. He is so self involved, everything is about him, nothing that we do matters or is ever good enough, let me just disappear.............