Spirit13
Status: Relaxing into & refining a healthier version of me!
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Well. I had a moment today of being quite low. yes that's right, depressed. I didnt take my SAME today -but I wonder if it can have such an effect by not taking it for one or two days? ... and it...
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sigh. I'm not really sure where I'm at - within myself. If I was to draw it I'd be a body of skin, with spikes inside. These sharp bits that are my hurt, pain, rejection and broken heartedness...
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I'm eating myself up.And destroying my esteem with food cravings. I want SO BADLY to be slim and desirably skinny but the problem is everytime I get down about it, remembering how betrayed I feel...
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I haven't been exercising at all! At this point in time I'm trying to scrounge up some energy.. I was really looking forward to forcing myself off to the gym for 7am classes, but now that I have to...
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Ahh what's going on here!!! I have greately and gravely back tracked. I'm going to tRY and eat meals and not snack late at night, my action plan is to have early nights. A new goal I'm going to...
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Well, I haven't written online in a little while and figured waking up like I have today - it might do me some good!!! I've woken up with the same feeling of yesterday, that a massive hunk of...
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I'm feeling stuck a bit!!! I'm surrounded in messs and feel i can't clean up after myself. My personal hygeine is a struggle, yet I know that I am usually a very hygenic person but I just feel so so...
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Food does not work. It isn't as comforting as I once could trick myself into believing it could be.It makes me miserable, lathargic and depressed when I binge and go off track. I really want to see...
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I want so badly to be sexy and skinny. I want to be a model bride.. I want to shed the weight I've agonized over having during the past few years. Now that I'm starting to recover from binge eating,...
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I haven't binged much lately. I've been buying a pack of chocolates once a week and going at them, as a de stresser and a comfort for being sad but it's not full binge mode.I don't really get that...
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dfdf kjkj Hello my journal. Just want to write out that I feel very on and off lately.I feel totally outside myself as opposed to inside myself if it makes any sense to onlookers here. I feel...
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I am SOOOOOOOOOO annoyed. The stupid snobs at the music centre I attend have knocked me back, telling me that I'm too old when the form I applied stated I was within the criteria. It was the first...
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I realise that a part of myself has given up. This shows in the way i'm not taking much care of myself and also in the way I am spending my time.I find it difficult not to be slothful and gluttonous...
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I've had a pig out last night on ice cream!!! It always puts me in such a rotten mood the next day. Things haven't seem to gone right and I've felt so lazy and unproductive! Sure I have to go to...
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I have kindly and passionately resolved to take on my 9.30am gym classes as bright eyed as humanly possible for MY kind in the morning!!!! Not the favourite or brightest time for me!!!! But none the...
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