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- I have 10 " friends" on this board. My email sends me writings from their journals & we answer eachother & send hugs. I have journaled twice & posted & basically begged for an answer & no nada zip I haven't heard boo. I don't think I'm doing...
- I've been reading thru my posts & there are some here that I'm deeply ashamed ofi don't like to read my own writing I find it's an exercise in humiliation That's why so many journals end up in the trash. I don't like my knee jerk angry responses if...
- Please tell me there's someone else in the world who feels like I doutterly uselesstotally misunderstoodeverybody hates youyou can't survive on your own but everyone resents youabsolutely alonetrying & trying but getting nowhere & just making...
- I am anxious at least 12 hours a day. Suggesting a walk to me or a trip to the grocery store fills me w increased anxiety & follows me there. My dr had increased my trileptal when I was feeling dangerously depressed. I was so anxious when I called...
- Maybe I should be posting in the bipolar group but it seems here is where all the help is. All I have to do is get in a conversation with someone that so much spills out that I'm left with humiliation & extreme social anxiety. I berate myself all...
- Or I think they are. I never know if it’s just me who’s odd & doesn’t understand the world. Someone obscure came back into my life & it flattered & threw me.i have to add that this was thru fb & I have no trust for “ relationships...
- bc I said something stupid. My husband says I have a problem with blurting. I feel so stupid & even lower than I did bf & that’s pretty low. I spent all day yesterday at my therapists & my doctors trying to find a solution. Then I slept for 20...
- but I’ve been taking my meds & I think my anxiety is more or less under control i am having a feeling like being punched in the stomach with an acute sadness that always exists but ebbs & flows. Even yesterday I was watching a horror movie w my...
- I don’t think I’ve ever fully realized what honest to goodness stop you in your tracks pace the floor strike terror in your heart anxiety “ regular” people think feels like. I really don’t until a callous remark from my husband who’s...
- the dog wakes me up at 5:30 every morning to be fed & medicated. I usually have breakfast & my meds then & then lie down for a little more rest. This did not used to be me. I used to be a horrible insomniac up for the day by 3 am. Now I cannot get...
- the last few days have been very bad. As I always think: the worst I’ve ever felt. Seen the doc. Seen the therapist. Went out for a social event. On my own. ( bravo)But when I hit the wall I hit it HARD. Today my 21 year old daughter held me while...
- it seems no one has posted there since 2009. I’m in trouble. And there’s not a person on this earth who can say I have not tried everything possible to make things betteryesterday or the day bf I had a long talk w my husband. I admitted( again)...
- Between my first night out last night & the fights going on in my family I have been asleep on the couch & cannot & will not get up. I’m still wearing yesterday’s underwear & a trip to the laundrymat is due but I don’t care about much. I have...
- first of all if you have a smarmy comment like the person here who responded to my post saying I was sicker than sick & they hoped I had the money to pay for the help I need please don’t respond at all. It hurt to the bone. I deleted all my posts...
- i used to post on the depression forum & recently I got a comment to a desperate post that basically said that I was sicker than sick & they hoped I could pay for the help I need. Anyway that’s what I heard. I thought about it I admit but decided...