Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
i used to post on the depression forum & recently I got a comment to a desperate post that basically said that I was sicker than sick & they hoped I could pay for the help I need. Anyway that’s what I heard. I thought about it I admit but decided it seemed a tad abusive so I deleted all my posts there..
the thing with me is I always think I did or said something that totally pissed people off & I don’t know it because I’m truly delusional
social anxiety on top of the countless other disorders I’m diagnosed with. You think?
i have no friends. I’m in the midst of a breakdown that’s been going on for years but has still not passed.So I had this one good friend who came back into my life after my 5 year sojourn of trying to fine my place. Now I’m back home & we’ve been hanging out & out of no where she sort of ghosted me. I ve gotten in touch asked about her health her family blah blah. ( she is not one to keep her complaints to herself & I say that with love. Told her I miss hanging out. She’s always polite but that’s it. So again ....what did I do?
Despite a bad relationship with klonopin years ago my new dr prescribed Valium. The relief is palpable. I try to take it responsibly I really do but I just realized I have 3 sleep aids in my body & im still awake. Progress not perfection.
Still. My depression is deep. I’ve had some dark days but “ resting” for 5 months now. I have episodes with my family in which I cannot understand why I’m the only one who I think is being reasonable. But it’s 4 against 1 so I lose.
About 25 years ago I was involved w a theater group & made some nice friendships & we’ve seen each other over from time to time but not for years. Of course this does leak into the members of the theater groups I worked with when my mania was in full swing & I ripped through everything & everyone like the 50 foot woman
sorry so long but here it is. Right bf I disabled my FB I learned a member I worked with had died & there is a memorial celebration at a local pub tomorrow night. ( wed the 3rd)I told myself I wasn’t going. Bought a dress & shoes & said I wasn’t going. Checked the “going” box. So. There will be people I’d love to see. There will be people who I don’t & vice versa. There will be mostly people I don’t even know
i will take a Valium but I promise I will not drink. Should I go? I can always leave. I can sit back & listen & be mysterious. Why am I so over the top again anxious about to go or not to go. My dad said to go or I’d regret it after. Am I a social pariah?Will I be a victim of playing the night over in my head wondering if I acted alright? Omg is this normal? Would you go?
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It's going to get hotter here with Thursday being the hottest. It's noon and 75f feels more like 80 or more.I've been cleaning up the deck in this morning and cleaning the windows outside. Then I cut up a pallet in half, I've decided to call it quits now because I went a bit light headed. Joanne, some drugs we take have an effect on us in the heat, I know a couple of mine do, maybe yours...
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My shrinks call my own rendition of what you describe, "Social Anxiety." By whatever name, ^it^ is one of the meanest and most therapy resistant symptom in my psychobaggage car. I have to nudge myself to say, "Good Morning" to my husband, much less play dress up and make my way through a social gala.
Still. . . It's harder than hard for me, but I almost invariably feel better when I gently nudge myself to stretch my comfort zone.
Hope you put on that dress and those shoes and give it an honest chance.
Social settings scare me. Recently, my work sent all of our employees and their families to a baseball game. The month before it, I started getting scared every time I thought about it, the last week before the event my palms would sweat. I had to force myself not to overthink it. I would sit and question whether I should go, whether I wanted to talk to anyone, and if I could meet anyone that I would be able to talk to when I am not at work.
I ended up going, having my family with me helped to make going and talking to people easier. It didn't really get me any better friendships, but having the practice is always a good thing.
Anxiety is natural, depression is natural, and learning how to make both of these work for your well-being properly takes courage, determination, and strength, and you have all three.
Best wishes and welcome to DS anxiety.
With that story fresh in my teeth, I am hoping you will at least put on your party feathers for the dignity of letting them believe you went, whether you actually make it to the party, or knot.
Bite me, titty babies. . .
Gee. . . Why do my middle aged cherubs call me, "Toxic Mom?" Life in the Toxic People Landfill ain't as bad the Non-Toxic Perfect People think it is.
Rocking you gently and crying with you, Deepark. . . NO FUCKING FAIR! ! !
SO. I went. I didn’t know ANYONE when I first walked in. I then found out that all the people I was dying to see weren’t coming after all. Ok. I found a couple of acquaintances so I sat with them & listen to the memorial speeches & FINALLY saw someone I wanted to see. He didn’t know who I was till I said my name & then thru him found out that ALL THE EQUISITE DAMAGE I caused with the other company was now common knowledge amongst all theatre companies. I laughed. It only makes me that much more interesting imo. Well so everyone was in shorts & flip flops a& I will admit that I was the most beautiful woman in the room except for this one 25 year old. And I also think it’s the absolute BRAVEST thing I’ve done in a very long time. THANK YOU lovely people for your support
Since I think spiders and reptiles are beautiful, I will let you judge that contest, but I fully agree the move was incredibly brave and smart, too boot. GO YOU! ! ! May it set a solid precedent for growth and healing.
I am so wishing you all well. But I have enough problems. And to you, Mid, please don't tell us how anxiety is natural or as depression. Meds are for that. And so do you think that we should all just take a really great breath as in breathing in and out for so many minutes?
I so hope that what you think works for you...I really do.