Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
the last few days have been very bad. As I always think: the worst I’ve ever felt. Seen the doc. Seen the therapist. Went out for a social event. On my own. ( bravo)But when I hit the wall I hit it HARD. Today my 21 year old daughter held me while I cried & cried & talked & talked. My daughter has bullimia & has had one manic episode. Years ago before I left the social workers at the ED center she was at decided mother was to blame & she’d be better off living apart from me. We are working on her bullimia with a team of medical drs. She has a pdoc but refuses to stay in therapy. We have a very good diologue about it imo.
I tell you this bc it somehow pertains to my story.
My middle daughter & I butt heads & she likes to come to the rescue however she lacks empathy.But she did kiss me on the forehead bf she left & said I love you mom( 2 days ago she claimed she no longer had a mother)
my oldest is a true daddy’s girl that’s ok She has a steady girlfriend in California who disapproves of me bc I’m an ignorant old lady who isn’t hip with the current language of political correctness. My oldest may be the only one who behaves as tho she may be embarrassed of me in front of her friends But I don’t know.Shes had bouts of depression & there is usually a trigger but I’ve always taken her for immediate help she always eventually opts out of the given therapy even tho she says she believes therapy should be mandatory once a year..I have a terrible memory of her staying home from a family vacation bc she was so depressed I had to stay home to take care of the animals & at the time I was so fully in the throes of a combo mania depression it was like stepping on the gas & break at the same time I couldn’t help her it was all about me I did take her to a therapist ASAP tho.
i have lots of terrible memories of my parenting & my illness.
So I google what is it like to be the child of a mentally ill parent.It horrified me.I could not get a morsel of good news . I am an ogre who damaged & continues to damage my children.
I noticed a lot of these mentioned parents either refused treatment or were undiagnosed.So I google the same & added & the parent has been getting help
Nothing.
So I google children of parent who has always continued to seek help but it isn’t working
Still nothing.
im tired of writing I’m sure you’re tired of reading but I’m feeling a lot of regret If I had tried harder I wouldn’t have gotten so freaking sick
