Your not.... That's the story of my life.

Oh absolutely not alone, I feel that way often, it’s a horrible dark place, you can express and recognize these feelings so well, means you have what it takes to get through this, the pain is temporarily feeling out of control, back up and give yourself permission to experience the pain, have some sympathy for yourself and think about how you would help a friend in you current shoes.

Ty for telling me I’m not alone

When I read articles & stories about people so mired in their depression. So much that they want to end it all I think. Aha there’s someone who feels the pain I do...then they reflect on their fortune of having all those people who love them who nurture them. And I stop reading. Bc I can’t relate. There are maybe 2 people who love me. My father loved me but he died so maybe there are two but more like one. And they don’t love me enough. I have a mother. I have children. And I sicken them

You are 100% not alone. And it really does get better.

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Can totally relate too. It sounds like you hit rock bottom.

same. it's like ppl act like you're so miserable, "are you ok???" so you try to be cheery, and make jokes...but they're just like, uh huh...it's like you can't win. if you're nice and happy, no one cares...but if you're miserable, ohhh, everyone wants you to know about it.

sorry about your mom and kids. I don't have much family either, my dad is mainly the only one that cares or talks to me or ever helps me.

As you know you are never alone as I've found on DS everyone is a friend someone will always stop by and say hello and try and give you advice, you can make friends on here so never feel you are by your self.
Take care of your self.

deepdark,

Best to you today. Just a question of reflection here: what would you do or be involved in doing with your life if you didn't have such a heavy load to bear? My idea is that you have some rather interesting impressions with your life right now, and it appears that you only need to set some sound, wise philosophical goals. How about it? Any plans for how to overcome the difficult moments?

You deserve all the best of life and I really hope for that.

Hugs and love!

You are definitely not alone! I feel the same way, it’s like I’m a leech on my family and they treat me that way a lot.

This is not bottom. I’ve been at bottom.
No one asks if I’m ok
That would be nice if they did
My dad was the only one who cared about me too. He died at the end of July. I was supposed to stay over that night but I had left my meds at home
I guess I’m still grieving. Maybe I’ll give myself a break

think of happy times in your life and know it will GET BETTER you will feel happiness again keep up the good fight my friend.

I have felt that way, but i do not let how people feel about me, get me down. Care about yourself and work on you. Naturally if you care about yourself, you will be more considerate of other people but you will also do what is best.

I’m better today bc I decided to let go. My husband & kids cornered me yesterday to tell me something’s wrong with me. That I shift the energy in the apt. Not in a good way. I have no choice but to change but idk what I’m doing wrong exactly. Idk exactly what it means to change. Don’t be angry. Don’t be anxious. Don’t be sad. I’ll try.