We are all here for you. Let it out. Anything on your mind. Anything you want to talk about. No judgment here.

Thank you. Because there’s no one else here for me. I am overmedicated misunderstood & feeling very very down while there’s pressure in my brain & my insides are buzzing. I’m literally afraid & in panic mode all the freakin time

Hi deepdark,
Sorry to hear that your going through so much anxiety. And you know what the receptionist was very rude. I would mention that to your doctor next time you talk to him. We're all here for you. We are all in this together to support each other and give the best advice we can. So let it all out. Trust me we have all been there. Italianmomma4ever

What are you afraid of? Talk it out.

so I looked up side effects of trieptal and webmd says:

Other things to note:
A small number of people who take anticonvulsants for any condition may experience depression, suicidal thoughts/attempts, or other mental/mood problems. Tell your doctor right away if you or your family/caregiver notice any unusual/sudden changes in your mood, thoughts, or behavior including signs of depression, suicidal thoughts/attempts, thoughts about harming yourself.

I’m afraid of everything. Literally everything. I moved myself to 2different states ( 5 moves in all)got a divorce even. Stayed holed up in lonely aptscame back home lost all my belongings remarried the man I divorced bc even tho this sounds like an adventure it certainly was not. I was an at home mommy for over 20 years so I have zero skills. I failed miserably at several different jobs went thru all of my money & I no longer drive so I was at the mercy of anyone I knew. I was the embarrassment who couldn’t dress herself feed herself or even leave the house.i cannot explain what this feels like to anyone. Picking up my mail was an exercise in total & complete fear.Im sure I humiliated my entire family. No one can understand illness unless it’s happening to them. I still burn from embarrassment & I still have to prepare myself mentally for over an hour to pick up something at the grocery store. I am beyond broken

Thank you hypetgal. I was afraid( duh) to look up side effects bc....just bc.

Hypergal...typo

But wait....you DID get the mail.

YOU did that.

Through all your fear and anxieties....you did THAT.

It may seem small to others but to you that's a huge thing, and something to celebrate. Don't downplay the little things.

Thank you for being so kind

One of the things about being hung up on, it happens frequently to me when being placed on hold.

So, what I do now before I get on the phone is have every thing written down and I ask the receptionist for the appointment and in three sentences cover the worst things that need to reviewed.

Keep those phone calls short, simple, and sweet.

As far as your goal to the mailbox, that is a huge plus!

If you feel the need to reduce your medication level, do it and write it out in a journal. Then at the next appointment, share in the office visit (not the receptionist) what your choice was and how it worked.

There is a reason the rear view mirror is so small and the front windshield is so huge-in the present we are driving in the direction we want to go, doing what we want to meet our goals, and keeping in the moment of our surroundings.

Write it out. Talk it out. Vent. The more you release the words safely, the better.

You are changing the way you think and do, hurrah for you!

Welcome to the anxiety board at DS.

I also write things down if I need to call someone. otherwise I prefer to email.

even opening the door to get the mail is difficult too. when I'm home alone, the mail will often pile up for days or weeks (which is great, in the rainy season, cuz it gets all soaked.) bc of all the stressors outside. one time, a lady walking by was like 'are you ok?" when I had just opened the door to get the mail - see why I don't? lol. I too hardly go outside, and if I need to go to the store, it can take days or more to "pump myself up" to be able to go there. then I wait til before they close, so there's as little ppl and traffic as possible, and drink coffee before so I can get there as fast as possible.

it's sad that no one understands, and just thinks you're being dramatic or lazy. like my dad will be like "it's to bad someone couldn't even open the door or get the mail" :(

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