but I’ve been taking my meds & I think my anxiety is more or less under control 

i am having a feeling like being punched in the stomach with an acute sadness that always exists but ebbs & flows. Even yesterday I was watching a horror movie w my daughter & I was having the best time & told her so 

And then ... ouch. Ouch ouch ouch ouch. It was back. And it’s like contractions. It’s a very heavy feeling & it exists around my stomach. And it’s awful. 

We found a nicer place to move. It’s smaller so that all the junk that has accumulated here has to be prioritized & tossed. I’m still packed from last move

i had to ask my very pissed off brother for money for this venture to occur. 

And my brother made me work( emotionally,you know? ) Tortured me for this money. He’s still interrogating me. I find out my mom opened her mouth & he finds out that I originally had planned to ask my brother for a higher amount of cash

I know they are my family & they care but there’s a big ole elephant in the room.... anyway

theres been lots of fights about money & about communication. 

I see my husband in the way he’s changed & hey that comes w age & he could use therapy too. 

I recently had a failed(or just aborted) suicide attempt that anybody I’ve told about it (2)& what went wrong doesn’t seem to be concerned. 

With all this above do you think this is anxiety? I’m so tired of feeling so sad & lonely & pathetic &?im tired of telling people that I feel that way. 

Do you think I should ask my pdoc to increase my Zoloft a little?( that’s not all I’m on but it’s the antidepressant)