kansasgirl1970

Ok, I updated my status today, to 13 weeks out everyone still breathing, lol.  Anyway 13 weeks.  I guess I need to start tracking in months now instead of weeks...............wish I didn't have to...

Well hell's bells and cockle shells.  I THOUGHT I was in a good mood.  Ha! I musta been out of my mind for a moment.Last night ended up being a good evening, even though I wasnt looking forward to...

Ok so I'm still a mess. Go figure.I know logically everyone's advice is spot on.  Emotionally I don't feel ready to give up my secret stash. I hate that.I hate that I seem to be stuck in this funk....

I'm such a freaking idiot!The talk recently of keeping of 'evidence' .  Yeah I kept crap.  Copies of the emails I found, the cards she sent him, he voluntarily showed me, after the initial lie he...

Ok, first thanks to everyone who commented on yesterdays obnoxiously long journal.  That's what happens when I don't journal regularly like I should, sort of a journal vomit. lolEveryone has good...

Ugh, not even sure where to start.  I just know that I feel better when I journal a lot of this head crap, but I haven't even been able to muster the energy to do that. Today is 11 weeks out. 11...

Ok so in the 10 weeks since dday I have like many I'm sure, sang at the top of my lungs to songs like When he Cheats by Carrie Underwood, and Stronger by Kelly Clarkson, anything by Adele,...

Well I haven't written anything in my journal for over a week.  I kept telling myself I'm going to, seems like a million different things I needed to vent about, but somehow I just always put it...

I wrote this as a post and it went so long I was wishing I had journaled it, so I copy pasted.  But also I thought would be good to keep track of good things too, not just bad days.Ok, a little...

Celexa and trazodone at night, thats what doc prescribed.  Yesterday H and I had been talking about A and tow and I was somewhat upset.  I reached over to the nightstand and grabbed the celexa to...

I had a hard time trying to decide where I was going with my journal today.  I feel like there is sooooo much I want to write down, like idk, 41 years worth :) Think I'll talk about betrayal. And...

I don't even know where to start, seems like there are 500 things since I last journaled, um day before yesterday? Went to see new doc yesterday, he prescribed an ad, and a combo low dose ad/sleep...

I am really really struggling these last few days.  Mood swings like never before,Crying, laughing,crying again, and angry.Luckily the kids haven't been home much last couple days, with the holiday,...

I am such a mess today.  All over the map emotionally.  Crying, mad, exhausted.  Went and bought H all new underwear today.  Yesterday when folding the laundry out of nowhere it hit me that I...

Ok, so been blah few days.  Thursday I started not feeling well, wasn't sure to be honest if was just me and stress, or something else, sister S- and her family were sick couple days before.  Felt...