kansasgirl1970

So little background,, Yes I really am a Kansas girl, and I live in tornado alley.H is originally from Joplin, Missouri.Tow was h's gf the summer he was 14 and she 15.  Lost his virginity to her,...

Ok second session mc last night.  Went well I think, so far I'm doing most of the talking though so H is getting off easy, but counselor assured him we will start his digging soon :) So I have to...

Ok, I spent all day yesterday draggin ass.  Physically, mentally, emotionally exhausted.  Was a good day for it in that all the kids were gone.  Very little housework got done though, and even as...

Ugh I just feel like crap today.  I just feel like tears are right there ....again...We had a pretty good Christmas.  Last night kids ended up staying the night with cousins, so H and I had house...

Christmas Eve, 9:30.   Watchin "It's A Wondeful Life", waiting on kids to go to bed so Santa can come :)  Kids are older so they stay up later,, but they are not up at 5 am begging to open...

This is just a bunch of emotionl trash.  I needed to just dump and this is a bit of the result.  Ok, so yesterday evening and last night I was not doing well.  Nothing specific, I mean I was...

Ok. so went to Dr. today.  Counselor recommended an anti-depresant.  I expected that, and after resisting for so long I am ready to try medication to get over this hurdle and get "me" back.. Dr....

Ok, so we wnt to our first mc session last night and I think it went well. I did most of the talking,,,nothing new there, huh?   Therapist did engage H some, but said being first visit, since...

So tomorrow we go for our first mc session.  I am having a wide range of feelings about this.  While I have wanted this for long time, and I know we have crap to work on,, now that its here, I...

Ok, so I decided since it's going to be crazy weekend, and I'm stressing and feeling anxious about, that maybe I'd try to jumpstart it on a positive note.So I sent H an email to work,,,said,,,I just...

UGh , hectic morning. Overslept.  Can't remember last time that happened.  Apparently I didn't turn on alarm,,but usually am awake before alarm goes off,, not today go figure.  And of course B-...

I just feel, ughhhh, this evening.  Nothing has happened, evening is quiet, no fighting.  Kids watching x factor.  I just feel like the flood gates are about to open..........something, idk.

Ok, I scheduled our first marriage counseling appointment.  Monday 6:00.  Hopeful  and scared at same time.

So last night was rough.  H seemed blah, but when I asked what was up I got the standard "nothing" reply.  tried again, same result.  Abouth 30 min later he says Christmas is going to be good...

Seem to be sad about some of the little things.