SageLife

I am all mixed up.  This coronavirus doesnt make things easier.  Yesterday i did a little instacarting.  You can tell people are just paranoid and there is no morale. Its sad to see things come...

Im having a real problem with ME.  Im not happy with the lengths I put myself out to please and save people i know that i cant.  I always have myself spread so thin and by doing so cant seem to...

It's not even hours after my first post.  The last text I received from Joe said "I miss you too, It kills me not knowing if your ok or not".Then nothing.  I tried reaching out this morning but got...

I kept hitting snooze.  I should be excited because the weekends here.  I love sleep.  I could be the new Rip Van Sage of the current day.  I know sleeping alot is not healthy and i wish the gyms...

I am staring at the walls at work today and counting the minutes till 430.  I have gone back and forth today in text with Joe and I believe he has really given up.  It breaks my heart.  I need to...

This morning I woke up to Joes text again-this time apoligizing for rushing the marriage thing.  Telling me he needs to stand on his own two feet again and apoligizing for the mess.  After a...

I received a text message from Joe.  Yesterday was his birthday and I knew that he was having a big party.  He told me "You won the bet, Ive been in the hospital with alcohol poisoning most of my...

Everytime I start feeling the loss of what might have been, I try and tell myself to be thankful for what I have now.  Im thankful for my bed, my cat and the roof over my head.  Im thankful i still...

While I'm working I have alot of things to think about.  It is near 80 deg outside but I have my space heater on to drown out the country music playing over the radio.  I think those sad songs...

I was up before light this morning.  I have all my flower babies on the back porch in full sun and decided to move them to the covered front porch.  I think the light reflecting from the slider is...

I have been sitting here thinking about the Joe's mother and how I'm feeling about the whole thing.  What it boils down to is this...Every man that has come into my life has been unreliable and it...

I received a email from Joe's mother.  She had gifted me a meditation series from Chopra.com.  This of course was when her son and I were to be married.  I know she struggles with money and so I...

I have never seen a Stargazer lily in person???flower???..I was at the hardware store and found the bulbs...so today i will try my hand at growing them.Im just going to poor all my love into...

I am up this morning.  Im looking around the room and i have not unpacked yet but that will be on my list today..I think maybe I was holding out that Joe would contact me but he wont.  He broke my...

I'm trying to keep busy this morning. My heart hurts.  That week in the RV was like a dream and I woke up to reality.  Yesterday Joe told me he would tell everyone I had the coronavirus and died. ...