Yeah between 11pm and 4am.........I get very angry, depressed and fearful every night is like that......

I can sleep during the day, i can sleep on a couch but during those hours and in a bed is like torment.

I get more depressed as the day progresses toward night, but my worst time is between 2 and 3 AM. That's when I used to wake up screaming. Now I am aiways awake at that time. Sometimes I wake in terror. Usually I can't get back to sleep. I can sleep during the day also. My night meds knock me out for about 2 and 1/2 hours. Most nights that's all the sleep I get.

Night is the hardest for me too. Really scary, confusing, vivid dreams. Sometimes it's bouts of insomnia and I'm terrified of shadows in my house, as if someone or something is waiting to get me. Doesn't happen every night, but if there has been some kind of trigger during the day, I can almost expect a rough night.

Thank you Lotus73. I also like a lot of light in the house. One of my nightmares is running back and fourth through the house trying to get a light to go on and I can't. When I come home from work the first thing I look for is the lights. My wife was also an incest survivor. We each spent many years in individual therapy and in couples therapy. We were able to truely love each other and stand by each other through our many illnesses. She needed every light and every TV in the house on at all times. She passed away a few months ago and I miss her terribly. I have suffered nightime insomnia all my life. My doctor thinks it's sleep apnia. That doesn't explain the waking up screaming. Thanks again for making me feel less alone.

I often start arguments with my husband so I can sleep n the floor in the library. I feel like stone in the bed and I feel so full of rage,fear and worry. It throws out my routine and makes me shirk my daily responsibilities, I am grouchy through the day and often cause tension in the house.

I get depressed @ night, usually after my husband goes to bed & I'm alone with my thoughts...It has alot to do with anxiety also though. I get down on myself because I cant control my paranoid thoughts @ night....I also have issues with my sleep schedule. I usually stay up all night with insomnia, then once it's daylight outside I start to get sleepy, but I have to watch my kids so I cant go to bed. By the time my husband gets home in the evening I'm exhausted so I fall asleep around 5 or 6...then I wake up about 11 or 12 & the cycle starts over...

I don't think I have felt depression before but my anxiety starts at 5pm and doesn't end until around 10pm. The after effects of the anxiety will keep me up until 1am and then I will sometimes be able to sleep then. I have sometimes 2 or 3 naps during the day to make up for it. I miss out on a lot though because day time is obviously when the kids are up and wanting to do something. Why does this happen? Why are there specific times that this happens to people?

I just came back from therapy and it was very intense! I am in touch with my inner child and all his pain. All his intense raw pain and a lot of crying. He feels really crazy. It was more pain than a little boy could tolerate.
Anyway, back to the night time depression. I have no specific memories of any abuse that happened at night. I do have evidence and I think something happened to me in bed when I was much to young to process it.
I will present the evidence. My first memories were of being in the hospital with perthes disease when I was 4 years old. I was in a Catholic hospital children's ward for 6 months, most of that time in traction. Perthes is a disease where the blood supply to the upper part of the femor I think is interrupted and the part of the bone that goes into the hip socket dies. It is fairly rare to have it in one leg, I had it in both. The treatment now is much more mild. At that time it was traumatic. As bad as the hospital was I was more afraid of going home. I tried to hide so I wouldn't have to go home.
As a little boy I had nightmares of snakes being very close and touching me. I had what I consider an out of body experience. I have had 1 flashback of my father's face being very close and I went for his throat and I almost hurt my wife. I can't be touched when I'm asleep or I will start swinging at whatever is touching me. I used to wake up screaming between 2 and 3 AM. I still am almost always awake at that time. When I was younger I was absolutely terrified of going to sleep. Now as it gets closer to night time I get more depressed, more so if I'm in touch with my inner child.
I do have specific memories of my father physically, emotionally and sexually abusing me at other times as a young child. I hated him and never wanted to be anything like him.
Back to the perthes disease they know it is an caused by an interruption in the blood flow and even though it is rare the most common occurance is in boys between and 8. They still do not know what causes that interuption. The think maybe hereditary or trauma. There is no history of it in my family at all. There certainly was trauma at other times.
There is my evidence. I believe there was sexual abuse by my father in my bed at night when I was very young that was so overwhelming that my young mind as incapable of dealing with it in any way. I believe that is why I have the problems I now have at night.
I also need lights on at all times. The first thing I look for when I come home is to see if there are lights on. I used to have nightmares where I was panacked because I couldn't get any lights to go on.
That is the evidence there is my conclusions. Does anyone have any other explanation for my evidence?

Wow do I feel overwhelmed with pain. I mindlessly clawed my hand and drew blood after writing that.

Emotional pain.

Dear loum50,

Sounds like you have enough evidence to say that that is why you have trouble at night. I, too, have a lot of trouble sleeping and at night, which is when my father would come into my room and molest me.

I just wanted you to know that I think you have enough proof. We always doubt ourselves, but if we look deep, we know the truth.

Hang in there.

When i was in the middle of all the bs. it was common for my depression at the time to become more intense when i was winding down for the day or when i woke up. During these times i had litttle distracttions like work to help me refocus.