I know I dissociate. Someone can be talking to me and I hear them, but their words don't register on my brain. I scratch myself and have no memory of it. Someone will ask me how did you get all those blody scratches and I have no memory. I used to be very split but I spent 10 years in therapy doing integration. I don't feel as split but I lost certain abilities. I was physically, emotionally and sexually abused as a child. I also was in the hospital for 6 months when I was 4. Most of the memories of my childhood is very spotty with no sense of time. I've also set out to drive one place and ended up somewhere else and not known how I got there. I've had out of body experiences. All those were survival skills when I was a child.