done in

I am so done in. so tired. emotionally and physically. today was a long one. in court hallway for over 2 hrs waiting for the 2 attys to come to some kind of agreement. and then I had to accept incompatible as grounds. ok so what if I can name adultery over and over as a grounds. oh well it's over now. i feel a little numb still. today was no different than yesterday. and tomorrow will be no different than today. I still pay the same bills. I still am the same person. just free of that asshole.
my sons had their moment too. they confronted the sperm donor face to face probably for the last time. hope it brings them closure. they need it too. they said a lot but sad thing is I don't think he heard them. He zoned out. I saw it. My friend saw it. Like a cloud came over him. He was there but wasn't comprehending what was being said. sad sad thing but not unusual for him. that's how he faces confrontation. He goes into his own little world. screw the real world.