After

I had my tears. I prob still will. But right now it's all good. I feel a weight slowly lifting. My mama said it all. She went thru a cheater (stayed with for us 5) and lots of loneliness. She survived his death by cancer in his 30's while still pregnant with last child. She survived! She told me it wasn't easy and what I'm going thru and what I've gone thru will be worth it. She stayed. I didn't. I did for 29 yrs but knew I had to leave. She prob would still be in that place. She assured me my life is going to be awesome one day. Someone (like my step-dad) will come along and love me to my fullest. I believe that. God will send someone when he thinks I'm ready. Definitely not now. But someday.