today

today is a day if life had dealt differently would of been my 29th anniversary. BUT i believe that my life is where it should be. I am happy. Really happy. I am without all that fear and doubt that I carried for so many years. I 'm not checking phone bills for unknown numbers, wondering why he doesn't answer his cell when i call, finding little "love" notes that aren't from his wife, trying to figure out why he's not home this weekend, seeing little marks on him that he tried to explain away. All that is no longer part of my life. The lying. The continuous cheating. All gone.
 
My sons and I have moved on. We are the family now. Their gfs are family. The new baby coming is family. HE is not! I am so blessed. I feel good. It's great feeling.