GDJ1957

It has been a long time since I have been here. I am doing good today. I will try to get back here and spread some hope and joy.

I am dealing with cronic back pain. It is bad the past month. Normoly excapable level is 5. It has been 7 or more the past month. I get to go to a back clinic on the 23 of this month. I have to hang...

It has been a long time since I have been here. I miss all of you. I hope all my friends are doing good. I hope to hear from you in the near futiure.

My niece was killed last night by a hit and run driver. This world is so fucked up. Having a real hard time right now.

I feel so empty inside. I have sort of stopped calling myself stupid. But now There is nothing else inside if me.

I now have to do some thing I think is very hard. I have to work on forgiving my parents. The reason it is hard. Is because they are no longer here. I have to forgive them in my hart. I need to do...

Here I go again. I will try to journal again. I am driving myself nuts with thoughts of an old girlfriend. I am trying to get her out of my head. But there are times when I still think I love her. I...

I feel like cutting tonight. Not sure if I will go through with it. I don't want to it is just I feel weird to night. I talked with my sponger tonight about blowing him and some friends off over...

FUCKING LIFE SUCKS !!!@!!!!!!!! Just when I feel like I am on my way up. FUCK ! My mind goes down the tube. My thinking gets fucked up. I think I want to die. I hate me and my life. I want to hurt...

I just feel like giving up on life again. No matter what I do. I never get my head above water. Just s tired of trying to......

I am working on making my own happiness. I remembered that I make my own happiness. I am not my depression. I am not a bad person. I will fight to get better. With the help of my true friends. Thank...

I am so lonely. It hurts. Some people are OK with being alone. I am not. It is hard for me to keep going every day. I have a lot of things that keep me around people. I do a lot of volunteer work. I...

I woke up at 3 AM today. I also have to be to my therapist at 11:30. This will be the first time I have seen her since I was in the hospital in January. I was in Intensive Outpatient program for a...

All my lifeI have helped peopleput pieces of there life togetherI always found extra piecesI thought I would keep themIn case they ever needed themThe other dayI wet to a funeral of a friendHe...

It is going to be a bad day tomorrow for me. A friend from the program has passed. I will have a few friends from the [program with me though. That will help. We can be there for each other.