GDJ1957

Just a few more days till the end of the year. I really hope this depression goes a away like it use to. I need some relief. I have a doc appointment but not until March 16. Oh well I guess I will...

I pray I can make it through this day and tomorrow. I also pray for all my friends here. I hope you all have a great day.

Why do I have to feel like this right now? I just finished wrapping some gifts. I enjoyed doing it . The only thing is all I could think of while I was doing this. Was cutting. I wanted to cut and...

I can't wait for this year to end. Or at least this holiday season. I am just having such a hard time this year. I am going between wanting to hurt myself and loving every one around me except...

Today is Santa day for me. Not much sleep last night. I know it will take a lot out of me this morning. Maybe I will take a nap today.

I hope I can keep the good feeling today. I need to see my girl. She is my sunshine. I have a new sponsie. I hope I can help him.

It is snowing out side now. It seems right for how I feel. I don't feel much of any thing right now. I just want to sleep right now.

Another night without sleep. I hate days like this. I know it will be a long one. Oh well at least I am sober so far today.

i am just so tired right now. I have been working a lot the past month. I am not use to it. I know I need some me time.

Why do I have to feel like this. I want to kill myself right now. I am sitting here alone and crying for no good reason. I just don't want to feel any thing right now. I want to go to sleep but cant...

Such a long night last night. I think I only got about 2 hours last night. Then I went to work for 9 hours. Now all I wnat is dinner then get some sleep.

Yesterday really really sucked. The only hing I can say about it is I did learn some thing.

I just read my last 2 entries . I sound like a friggen nut  

I am so fucking mad at my daughters boyfriend right now. That little bastard has my little girl so upset right now. I want to hurt him real bad. I know I won't buy I Also know it is alright to have...

I am sooooooooo fucking mad right now. I want to scream and brake shit or drink until I pass out. My fucking kids are driving me nuts. I feel the need to cut right now just so I can not feel anything.