GDJ1957

I don't know what it is today. I just wish i wasn't here or any where. I had a dream last night about positive thinking but just can't get it to work for me today. All i can do is make it through the...

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I just want to thank all my friends here for just being here when i needed you all. I know i haven't been around a lot lately. I am working real hard on getting things done in my life that needed to...

I hate this roller coaster i am on. All the ups and downs not knowing what the next minuet will bring. Right now it is back down. Way down. I want to go away to some place where i can find peace and...

I hate this roller coaster i am on right now. I just wish i could stay some where in the middle some time. I did it again yesterday. I wish i knew why i do this things to myself.

I had a better day yesterday. I got to talk to some good friends. It helps to keep the light going.

I need to get some thing out. I just don't have the words to do it.

The sadness seems to never stop. No words to say to any one.

It seems like i have no words in me any more. Just a void. I try SI but it does no good. Where did i go?I know i should talk to some one but without words in me. I have nothing to say.

The depression is back. hating life again. No money for doc. or meds and make to much on disability to get in free clinic. I am not sure how i am going to make it this time. I just want to give up.

It has started again.

X it happened again.

I need some sleep. I was up at 1 am today again. Just trying to accept that i will have pain all my life. It takes a lot out of me but not much i can do.

It was one year ago today that my best friend and sponsor pass on to meet his higher power. It still hurts once and a while but i know he is in a good place. I also know the best way i can honor him...

Why won't the words come out?