GDJ1957

I feel so stupid. I just feel I can;t stop. If anyone wants to you can read about it in Self-injury support group under...help (graphic) 

I was going to write what i did in my last journal. FUCK :( I just don't know why.

I did it again yesterday. I don't know why. Fuck.

Yes I am happy again. Not sure how it happened but what the heck i will just enjoy it. Some days not sure how i will make it but having a lot of help always works for me. The only thing i wish for...

Just a few words. Things are looking better today. Like all my friends have said. Hang in there. I did and the sun is starting to shine. I am so blessed to have friends like every one here. I also...

Pain Pain go away. All the pain every day. I am so tired of felling pain. Both physical and mental. I have some great friends here with kind words. i just feel so stupid because i can't get myself...

This is going to just be me pissing and moaning so if you don't want to read any further thats ok. I wouldn't read any further myself.I am so tired no run down. I hate having to try to keep my...

I HATE MY LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am going this week to see if i can get into an outpatient program. My therapist suggested. I hope i can. i need some thing.

Just so fucking tired of fighting this depression.  It just never seems to go away. Even with taking meds it is hard to keep my head up. Thank's to all my friends here for your support. Love you...

I have been cutting a lot lately. I need to stop some how. Last night was sort of deep. If i am not careful it turn out bad soon. I missed my appointment with my therapist. i need to make one again...

I seen my therapist today. I now have a lot of work to do on things. It is scary what i have to deal with but i think i can make it. It is going to be hard and painful. Starting to get a...

I Just want to quit.

Having a bad day so far. depressed and wanting to cut really bad. I just hope the rest of the holidays get better. I know i should have gone to a meeting tonight but didn't want to be around any one...

Just rambling today. I feel lonely because Shelie is not here right now.  This is thew first fathers day with out parents.  I just feels weird. I know my kids are here and i love then to death....