GDJ1957

I need some sleep. I was up at 1 am today again. Just trying to accept that i will have pain all my life. It takes a lot out of me but not much i can do.

It was one year ago today that my best friend and sponsor pass on to meet his higher power. It still hurts once and a while but i know he is in a good place. I also know the best way i can honor him...

Why won't the words come out?

To all my friends.I know it has been a while since i have been here. I am sorry for leaving with out a word. I hope you all are doing good.I am in a very bad place and have been for a while. There...

Here it is 6:30 in the morning i have been up sense 2 am. I was suppose to have my med pump install yesterday but the doc had a family emergency. Now it is put off until June 10. I have a appointment...

I don't know how to get this out but i am going to try. I want to live my life now. I don't want to sound self-centered but I want a life. I have given so much of myself to my family for so long that...

I am mad at the world.

I am so glad to be back on my old profile. I have found a new look on life. I even said the other day that i like myself. For me that is a big thing. I haven't said that in many years. I wish i could...

I have a renewed hope that i can make this a good year. I want this negative side of me to go away for good. I am learning that life is to short to let the good things slip past me.

Thank you every one for your thoughts and prayers. I know i wasn't gone long but it seemed that way to me. He is gone again and i am in control for now.

To any one that cares. I am going away for a while. I will try to keep posted on what is happening.

I am in a funk right now. I am trying to get out of it so i come here and read the comments and hugs from everyone and that helps put a smile on my face. Time to give out some hugs and love

I can't begin to tell every one here how much i owe you all for being here and helping me through the rough times. I am now starting to have good times and i can't think of any where else to be and...

I am finding what it is like to have friends again. It feels really good. I have been alone for so long i forgot what it is like. I can even say i am OK with myself. I wish i could get across how...

I was reading my journal from last year. The one i have on paper. I feel i done some good things to change myself over the last year. I want it to continue through this year. I will probable do more...