valgal18
Status: other grandma in hospital and grandpa just passed away
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- so i've been thinking about my rapes recently.....i wasn't thinking about them for a long time so i guess it's time i did.....but i was thinking...and the first one i can't remember what happened after he said that he was gonna rape me.....i don't...
- so i wasn't exactly sure where to post this, but i thikn this is my best bet....soooo i went to the doctor last thursday.....i've only see nthis doctor MAYBE 4 times.....i was there for an annual check up and i brought up bloodwork and said that i...
- so my grandpa died last night around 6......my parents had my brother come home and didn't trust me AT ALL.....i was really kinda angry about it....they went to the hopsital and then spent the night at my grandma's house....and they won't be back...
- so as some of you know, i have an uncle who favors me and he's been making me feel very uncomfortable......on saturday he tocuhed me and gave me attetion and stuff.....i was able to kind of let it go, but it's really bugging me.....telling my family...
- this is kind of off topic, but on topic at the same time.....soooooo because i cut and stuff my parents can't stand to leave me alone.....like in the house...they leave me home alone for a day or two....or for more than 12 hours, but then they...
- one of my brothers goes to the college where i was raped in 2009.....he has his spring break and my mom asked him today if he was coming back in town for Easter.....he said he probably wouldn't...so my mom said,"well i guess we'll go there...." and...
- sooooo my goal is to stop blaming myself for my rapes.....and i'm making progress.....but, see, i can't stop blaming myself for my second rape......i told my mom and she told me,"there was so much you could have done, val....you could've called...
- hey, guys...i was wondering if anyone has abandonement issues??? like, here's my example....two weeks ago when i saw my therapist i was really frustrated and she didn't give me an answer to a question and i got frustrated with her.....and then this...
- earlier this week i came ot realization that i've been raped 3 times in my lifetime.....all at the age of 18.....the third time really has me feeling awful.....relationship with the guy and he ended up scaring me b/c he hurt me and i had sex with...
- i'm sorry that i keep posting, but i can't stop thinking about it......as i posted earlier and as some of you told me i was raped for the third time in november 2010.......i feel so stupid!!!!! like i should have prevented it....i'm stupid because...
- you would think that i would know this but i don't......i need to know if something i experienced about a year ago was rape.....again, you would think that i would know this, but i don't...maybe becasue of my own distorted thinking or whatever....so...
- kinda need some help now, guys......i'm sitting in my room...i looked at my grades for one aprticular class.....i'm not doing so hot....getting a D...it's all based on the homework i;ve done so far.....our first test is on wednesday.....i'm sooooo...
- so i had a doctor's appointment a few days ago.....just an annula check up and when i got home my mom asked me how it was and i saidf it weas good......i said,"dr. *****said congratulations to dad for getting a new job and he's really happy for us...
- i may have already brought this up so forgive me if i did.......whenever people talk about giving forgiveness to their rapists i always say good for them, and ask myself why???? why should they forgive them for what they did??? i'm agnostic, so...
- so as most of you know, i was raped in october 2009 and in january 2010......i'm currently having flashbacks and such now and that i can handle.....something i'm having trouble with is how i handled the second one.....the first one i was a fighter...