valgal18
Status: other grandma in hospital and grandpa just passed away
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- so there's this guy that i like at work.....i work at a gym/fitness center in the child care place.....parents can leave their kids there and they can leave the building if they want to.....welllllll there's an autistic boy who goes there and the...
- i have 2 older brothers and my mom made each of us a scrapbook from the time we were born up to our high school graduation and we saw it at our high school graduation party.......it was really nice and, as far as i know, i'm the only one of the...
- i wasn't exactly sure where to post this, but this brought up anxiety and feeling like a victim so i guess here would be okay....soooo yesterday i was at work at a kid's dad was checking him in and i was at the door....i asked how the dad was, just...
- so i cut last friday.....and my cuts are healing....but i pick my scabs.....i'm not entirely sure why and i've tried ot figure it out, but i can't......i put ointment on it and then i try not to pick it, but i end up doing it anyway....the cuts are...
- so i just cut and the tool i used isn't sharp enough for me.....i wanna use something sharper.....i called my mom and she just told me to get out of the house.....i need help!!!! what do i do????? i wanna keep on self injuring and i wanna sue...
- around this time of year is the anniversary of my second rape.....i blame myself for it and i believe that i need to be punished.....and the way that i can do that is to self injure......now i know that i shouldn't self injure or blame myself, but i...
- soooo my secodn rape was in late january in 2010....i don't remember his name, face or car.....i don't remember the date that it opened only that it was in late january so that's when my anxiety peaks....and this is the rape where i didn't fight and...
- so i have this coworker that we'll call hilary-that's not her name but i'll refer to her as hilary-and whenever i'm around hilary my BPD goes in full swing....my anger shows and i act like a bitch to her becasue i can't find another way to control...
- i wish it had never happened....i wish he never took my viriginty, my innocence, my happiness...my life.....he took a piece of my life when he stole everything from me......i really wish it didn't happened or that he had killed me after.......i hate...
- so last wednesday i self injured....i was stressed about school as ususal.......the problem is, i wasn't willing to use skills.....i have lists of coping skills, but i just don't wanna use them.....if i get stressed i just don't care if i self...
- hello.....my name is val and i'm new...i've had BPD for a few years and wanted to join a site....i always have trouble expressing my feelings and i find that talking to people who understand makes me feel at least a littloe bit better.....thought...
- i am so stressed about school.......i just wanna self injure until all that stress is released......i have a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow....if she puts me in the hospital i willl refuse.....i don;t have the time to go in the hospital and my...
- sooo i cut on tuesday and it's not too bad.....the thing is i pick my scabs....that's not too bad...i know i need to stop so i can stop that....but my anxiety is kicking in and i wanna cut again...but i don't WANT to!!!!! i don't wanna cut again and...
- sooo i havne't been thinking about my rapes a lot, but this hasta do with rape.....so i met up with my aunt yesterday....and i told her about my first rape....and she told me that m uncle M-this is NOT the one that makes me uncomfrotable-was...
- so i was in psychology class today and we were talking about the memory and my teachers paired surpressed memories with false memories.....and she was talking and kind of made me think that she doubted me.....i mean she has no idea b/c i've never...