Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
so my grandpa died last night around 6......my parents had my brother come home and didn't trust me AT ALL.....i was really kinda angry about it....they went to the hopsital and then spent the night at my grandma's house....and they won't be back until dinnertime tonight....the thing is, i'm kind of numb about the whole thing.....and i usually cut when i feel numb....i feel like it's my fault that he died....i know that it's not...at least i can tell it's a distorted thought, but i wanna cut.....i don't want to, but i wanna stop feeling numb!!!!!! i wann sleep the day away......i'm numb, but at the same time i'm so depressed......i just wanna sleep....otherwise i would probably exercise or do something, but i don't have the energy....i'm so depressed that i wanna sleep and so numb that i wanna cut.....anyone have any ideas on what i can do?? i've never had anyone this closeto me die before.....no one in my family has ever died before....
Especially since it is so recent, I can see how you might feel a lot of things, both numbness and depression as you said. Maybe allowing yourself to sleep and exercise if you can would be helpful? It is better than harming yourself and it can provide a temporary escape. Maybe things will get better with time but right now they are obviously difficult and you could use some self-care. Take things one day at a time.
You seem to know what your body wants and needs -- allow it to have those things and see how you feel after you have done that.