Thor2008

Just got out yesterday.  was there a total of four days (short stay because of my job) but was there because of a suicide attempt on Friday.  It was the combat PTSD that got me and the flashbacks...

I have been working with my therapist to unlocked some memories I had of swimming at the YMCA which I loved.  They memories always seemed black and bad.  So three weeks of working on this I know...

I am a defense contractor and the contract that I worked under ran out on 6 Jan.  So I am have been unemployed since then.  Just got my written offer of employment last night.  Yeah.  But my...

So Last week, I was to do Electro-Convulsive Shock Therapy (ECT), and the night before I was nervous.  I had done ECT many times before but this time I was nervous and knew that I wouldn't sleep....

Has anyone taken this drug?  My depression is severe and I have many thoughts of suicide.  I am taking electro-convulsive therapy (ECT) on a 14-day schedule.  The next one is tomorrow morning.  ...

Haven't been on that much of late.  Lots going on with the house, house sale, and construction (remediation of mold).  But I am in the middle of bipolar depression.  The stress of everything was...

I have to get a covid test test for any surgical proceudre and for elecroshock theraphy.  Today I had my 23rd test.  I am known by the nurse that does the test so the test ti quick and painless.

As everyone knows, I have been having a very tough time of PTSD, Depression, and Anxiety.  I overdosed to feel pain, though about burning myself again to feel the same pain that I was feeling...

I overdosed on Lithium over a couple of days.  I want to increase my lithium blood count before my blood draws for an annual exam.  I wanted to show a really high count to show that I am sick.  I...

I had a surgical procedure today with anesthesia to remove a cardiac monitor in my chest.  The doctor came in and said that he could take it out in five minutes and he was confused about why there...

OK... here's my rant.  I am at the hospital getting my covid test in my car.  Nurses pass in front of me as the nurse parking lot is near the surgical center where the covid test is.  I see nurses...

I don't know if you been to a rage room but you pay for time in a room with lots of stuff and you get to smash and destroy whatever you want.  You can buy stuff to put in there like glass and dinner...

Everyone see the Trump just sign into law a new national Suicide crises number: 988. No more ten digit number and hopefully better caller service. 

Below is a letter to the Secretary of Navy that detail my case and why he decided incorrectly in my case.  This goes to my shame and guilt and why my career ended early.  I would like feedback to...

I was released yesterday from the Psych Ward.  Spent a total of a week on "inside".  This place is just a place to triage those that are sick so very little help was offered.  I did three ECT...