MariahB

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• Depression
  

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  Posted by: MariahB

  Posted: 08/16/2020

  MariahB commented on the discussion I hate myself! I hate my job and I regret my B.A.

• Eating Disorders
  

  Binge eating disorder/body dysmorphia

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  Last Reply: Prycejosh1987 10/30/2020

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  I suffer from both of these as well as major depression/anxiety. A few years ago I lost 55 pounds on my own the healthy way and it was life changing. Then I got comfortable with the fact that "I can do it again anytime" and I let myself slip and gained in a back plus some. Now I'm stuck between being too emotional to stay on track and everything ether makes me so irritated or depressed I just don't care. I hate feelings like this. I feel like it's not fair for my daughter either because when...

• Depression
  

  I hate myself! I hate my job and I regret my B.A

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  Last Reply: Andromeda8 08/17/2020

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  Feeling very worthless and hopeless and angry and sad and depressed. I regret getting my degree and I have been wanting to drink a lot lately. I haven't gave into it yet but just the thoughts alone bother me. I wish life had an off switch but I'm a parent so it doesn't work like that. 

• Alcoholism
  

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  Posted by: MariahB

  Posted: 01/29/2020

  MariahB commented on the discussion old habits are tempting. . ..

• Depression
  

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  Posted: 09/24/2019

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• Depression
  

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  Posted: 09/24/2019

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• Depression
  

  Ready to GIVE UP!!! I hate myself

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  Last Reply: OmaGosh 09/27/2019

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  I just want to curl into a ball and hide in a dark room and never come out. Too bad I’m a parent and too bad I have a job where I can’t do anything right but I have student loans to pay off. I’m under appreciated and just not in a good space right now. I hate myself!!!!

• College Stress
  

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  Posted: 09/20/2019

  MariahB commented on the discussion GRADUATED THIS SUMMER WITH MY BACHELORS.

• College Stress
  

  GRADUATED THIS SUMMER WITH MY BACHELORS

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  Last Reply: MariahB 09/20/2019

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  STARTING TO FEEL LIKE “why did I ever get into the human services field”!!?? I KNOW MY INITIAL REASON WAS BECAUSE OF PERSONAL EXPERIENCE AND WANTING TO HELP YOUTH LIKE ME, BUT NOW THAT IVE GOTTEN MY FEET WET A LITTLE ITS A LOT MORE STRESSFUL, EMOTIONAL AND ALMOST REGRETFUL. Between the way the staff members leave me hanging and the way the youth stress me out (usually when I’m alone to deal with situations meant for a few staff members) I really want to quit and go into a different career...

• Alcoholism
  

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  Posted by: MariahB

  Posted: 09/14/2019

  MariahB commented on the discussion old habits are tempting. . ..

• Alcoholism
  

  old habits are tempting. . .

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  Last Reply: Candi 02/04/2020

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  Recently, Ive come up on a year and one month sober. I havent had a ciggarette in 5 years, weed in 2 years and alcohol in a year and a month. I think dropping every "coping" method and trying to get through my issues and feelings soley through therapy, medication and just being strong is starting to get to me. I know none of these old habits will actually help anything but I feel even more alone because everyone around me has something to look forward to that helps them wind down. everyone...

• Alcoholism
  

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  Posted: 07/26/2019

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• Depression
  

  Transitioning into pure sadness

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  Last Reply: Bobby5000 07/26/2019

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  lately I’ve been soooo depressed and angry and mad at myself. For gaining so much weight, for having yet another failed Relationship, for graduating from college only to be disappointed and dissatisfied, for not wanting to interact with my own child because I just can’t keep pretending to be happy or interested and then I get mad at myself for not being happy and interested at least in her. I fall asleep to late and wake up late feeling like a bum, I still have to tell my daughter that the...

• College Stress
  

  Just graduated with my bachelors degree.

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  Last Reply: Eliza02 07/15/2019

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  I thought I would feel on top of the world and ready for my career but honestly I’m disappointed that a degree doesn’t give me better opportunities like I assumed. It’s oretty depressing. People are happy for me and I just feel like I busted my brain for 5 years straight and graduated with honors for nothing....and it is such a big deal to graduate but maybe the field just wasn’t right for me. Idk 

• Eating Disorders
  

  BODY DYSMORPHIA AND BINGE EATING.....

  Posted by: MariahB

  Last Reply: Prycejosh1987 10/30/2020

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  seeing pictures of myself that I didn’t take makes me wanna die. Like literally any kind of self confidence or self love I had before goes to negative 10000000000. It’s such a cycle and such a heavy weight (yeah yeah) to carry and keep chipping some off just to add more on and keep carrying it day after day. It makes me hate myself. It makes me more anti social and down than ever. I just want to like and love myself and be happy and that seems like it will never happen. I hate it. I hate...