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Transitioning into pure sadness

MariahB
MariahB

lately I’ve been soooo depressed and angry and mad at myself. For gaining so much weight, for having yet another failed Relationship, for graduating from college only to be disappointed and dissatisfied, for not wanting to interact with my own child because I just can’t keep pretending to be happy or interested and then I get mad at myself for not being happy and interested at least in her. I fall asleep to late and wake up late feeling like a bum, I still have to tell my daughter that the only dad she knows will be moving out soon and that we are not together. It’s gonna break her heart and it’s all my fault. For choosing another failed relationship. On top of that my stupid eating disorder is controlling me and body dysmorphia reminds me of the fat disgusting ugly person I am and all of this just makes me want to curl up and die. If I’m not gonna be any use to myself or my child or my field then what’s the point. I know I won’t kill myself because my daughter is my world whether my depression allows me to show it or not but I know that if she wansnt here I would of been gone. Sucks to feel that way and to know that. And to cry all the time and talk to her with my face away from hers so that she can’t tell I’m drowning in my own tears. She is so innocent and deserves someone who wants to watch her dances and color with her and laugh with her and I just can’t. I hope this all changes. I seen a therapist and got on new meds but so far nothing is helping me. I just don’t wanna keep feeling lost and lonely. 

red47640
red47640
I am so sorry you are feeling this way-- I'm glad you saw a therapist, and it sounds like you want to get better but are just at a loss as to how (I feel that way too right now). Unfortunately, it can can take weeks for medications to actually take effect. What coping skills have you tried lately? I know you're in a difficult patch right now. It sounds like you love your daughter more than anything else, which is wonderful. But it's also important to practice self-care. Baby steps. I hope this is of some help.
MarcRiddick
MarcRiddick
I am so really sorry to hear about your condition, obesity is one of the signs of depression and I can relate to your sister my father was almost the same guy. I will suggest that you should pet a dog, you both can exercise together, which will help the obesity and some doggy love is all you need.
Restful
Restful
I feel exactly how you are feeling right now, especially about my child. I hope I can somehow be present for him through the madness of depression.
Bobby5000
Bobby5000
Just do the best you can. You seem like a very nice person. Try not to worry about what happened in the past.

Just try to be a good mother. Find something you think will be fun to do. Smile at your daughter and tell how you're proud of her. If you want to diet then do so now, if not, that's your call. Let's not worry about a boyfriend or someone else did, you cannot control what they do. Let's not get too crazy about body image for there are many different ideas and views.

Just take some easy steps to accomplish your goals, don't be too hard on yourself and be a good parent. I'm sure your child just sees a parent.

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