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These aren't my exact words but are my EXACT feelings and I copied them from a website : pscychologyinfo.com/depression/major-description..."It takes the greatest effort to get out of bed in the...

Tomorrow's my birthday (July 6th). My 'present' to myself is a visit with the psychologist to try other meds that may combat my depression.   I've always felt apprehensive about meds to alter the...

I am already my own worse enemy...If I could only learn to be my 'better half'...

Depression is a disease of the devil's conception... It creates an illusion self-destruction is the only path to salvation.. It lowers your expectations to suicidal aspirations.....

I have an appointment today with my therapist that I will cancel. He can't tell me anymore than he already has; nor will I have anything new to tell him. Same shit, different week - hi's/lows. The...

Is suicide really selfish??? Why...it's my life!!!  Not everyone can be happy - not even most of the time.  Why should I be terminally miserable and therefore cause misery to everyone around me? ...

Another day...as long as I'm functional than it can be considered a neutral (not clinically depressed, but not happy) day.  I'm satisfied with this position; happiness is so far beyond my...

I went to my first group session last nite. Everyone introduced themselves and told me a little about them including the group leaders/facilitators, who themselves, went thru (still going thru) some...

Going to my fist DBSA (Depression and Bi-Polar Support Alliance) support group tonite (WAHOOOO!)...

Each day that goes by I lose grip on any connection to this world, including my own flesh and blood.  If I could only will myself away...

My life exists solely for others - not for me; I feel an OBLIGATION to be here not a desire to be here.  If left up to me, I wouldn't be here...

In my ideation of suicide and death, I've also wondered what's beyond this life.  I believe in reincarnation; I believe this world is a school and we are all here to learn and teach from others to...

So much to improve on.  My mood is fair; not good but not bad - just on the fence; not hanging my hat on anything.  I want to reside more in the external world and less in my own mind; I don't...

Being good to yourself, loving yourself before others can love you...what does this truely mean and how does one learn/apply this philosophy and why does this attract others?  It sounds rational and...

I was admitted to the hospital's psych ward last Tuesday after being 'voluntold' to admit myself by my Therapist; this after texting my spouse suicidal messages thru out the day. I had every...