Another B.S. day...

Another day...as long as I'm functional than it can be considered a neutral (not clinically depressed, but not happy) day.  I'm satisfied with this position; happiness is so far beyond my reach.  I've waken up with the same question I've had for a very long time - "why the fuck did I have to wake up!"  Many give thanks just for waking up - I say 'bullshit' to that! 
Why can't GOD just answer my prayers for once...