Gabrielle48

4 years ago today, my second secret life and the OM,s happy little bubble came crashing down in a massive implosion and along with it my real life and my H's world as he knew it.  Words could never...

Our 3rd Dday anniversary (Discovery day that my husband found out about my affair) and our 32nd wedding anniversary are only 4 days apart.  Sunday was our Dday anniversary and Thursday is my wedding...

I have rejection issues.  This has been a new insight into myself that I have gotten over the last 24 hours. I can see my rejection issues as a vein running through my whole life as far back as I...

Holy week is an emotionally hard time for me.  First of all, Holy Week in our church (Eastern Orthodox) is grueling and physically exhausting.  More so if you have to work hard every day and then...

Dear Sweetie, Excuse me for barging into your DS email feed. But it is related, so it fits. Tonight, literally this morning, I decided to check in on CA forum. Some recent activity had bumped your...

Most of you have read this as it was recently posted on Cheaters Anonymous as a thread.  Thank you all for the replies.  As I was writing it I gained a little clarity on my struggles and on the...

I was working in OM's neighborhood again today.  I have gotten to where I am mostly okay on these days once every other week, but just a little nervous when I go to and from the car.  I was there...

I spent some time digging up some articles for a new arrival on Cheaters Annonymous who is deeply enmeshed in an affair and trying to get out.  I tell you getting out is very very hard.  I couldn't...

 Toay is our 2 year Dday anniversary, as well as being 4 days before our 31st anniversary.  We are on a weekend away at the beach.  Compliments of a friend.  We are having a great time and we...

I read this on another thread and it remarkably describes my experience after Dday."Those that are strong and determined eventually do come out of the “fog” and are completely overwhelmed by the...

I wrote this illustration for someone and wanted to save it here:"I am glad you are working hard on your rebuilding. It is a big job. My perspective on rebuilding is like a person standing in the...

So today was our 1.5 yr Dday anniversary. (It's after midnight) I don't know if it had anything to do with it, but I was a bit emotionally unstable the first half of the day.  Over sensitive,...

It is our 17th month since Dday today. By the way, in case you didn't notice the date today is 10-11-12. We are now one month away from a year and a half from Dday. Seems like no time at all yet such...

My H typed this up for someone and he did it so nicely I decided to save it here so I can copy/paste, when i recommend these books, as I so frequently do.  I labeled it required reading because that...

I sent this as a message to a BS and I want to save it here.  What must the CS do if they want to rebuild successfully.There are so many things that a CS can and should be doing to successfully...