Gabrielle48

Well....it has been 5 mos since DDAY.  The day my secret "second life" came crashing down around me.  The day I was plucked out of the fog I had been living in for 7 mos and placed firmly back in...

Well, I have cried the last 3 days in a row at least a little.  Sometimes I just can't help it but it is okay.  It is venting some of the sadness and pain.  It was not a despairing crying which is...

OKAY!  Day 2 of no crying which is a BIG deal because I saw OM in his car today and that used to automatically make me cry.  I also worked in a somewhat triggery place today and there were a couple...

I never cried today!Had a couple small bouts of sadness but not enough to make me cry.  Purposefully tried not to let my thoughts go too deep or morose today.  Shall I try for 2 days of no...

OM responded to the e-mail that H sent. (see previous journal entry)  He said that he is over me and was stupid to slow down and/or follow me in his car and that he will not do that again or pay any...

I am still struggling so much with what I did.  OM is not out of the picture since he has been shadowing me when I am in his area working.  H sent him an e-mail again threatening a restraining...

I have not updated since week 4 or 5.  It has now been 2.5 mos.  I have reached several milestones since my last update.The first happened in week 4.  I had been struggling mightily over OM....

I just posted this as a response to someone but I think it is a good journal entry for me today.  Here it is. "With DDay being only 4 wks ago I am still feeling so much pain and turmoil a lot of...

As I see it H and I have a common goal.  Marital unity and happiness; but we also have different goals to work on.My goal is to make sure that the things that led me to the A are far far behind me...

3 weeks after DDay.  I feel I am making progress.  As the CS I have to decide what my goal is.  What am I progressing towards?  1)First and foremost to never let that happen again.  2)To change...

 With me the reasons I had the affair start with me losing a lot of weight a few years ago. Feeling sexy and having men flirt with me was new to me. One man pursued me relentlessly and I already had...

Well....it has been 5 mos since DDAY.  The day my secret "second life" came crashing down around me.  The day I was plucked out of the fog I had been living in for 7 mos and placed firmly back in...

Well, I have cried the last 3 days in a row at least a little.  Sometimes I just can't help it but it is okay.  It is venting some of the sadness and pain.  It was not a despairing crying which is...

OKAY!  Day 2 of no crying which is a BIG deal because I saw OM in his car today and that used to automatically make me cry.  I also worked in a somewhat triggery place today and there were a couple...

I never cried today!Had a couple small bouts of sadness but not enough to make me cry.  Purposefully tried not to let my thoughts go too deep or morose today.  Shall I try for 2 days of no...