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- I could be wrong, but I think most addicts indulge in their vice solo, without anyone else knowing. This was definitely the case for me.When I relapsed recently, I would go to the casino almost every day, and naturally, after a while, I'd recognise...
- Maybe it's a trite question if we're all admitted addicts. But I'd just like to relay an experience here.I'm the type of person who is always calm, aloof and seemingly in control of myself. About two months ago I re-started gambling, and made a tidy...
- I was reading an article about a very wealthy Australian business man who had passed away a few years ago.He was many things, including a gambler. He loved gambling.Here's one part of the article which reasonated with me:Both Richardson and Phillip...
- Hello all, I am (unfortunately) back.First, I just wanted to say sorry for being away, but I realised that, maybe subconsciously, coming here was maybe some form of 'vicarious gambling' FOR ME. Thus, the less I thought about the topic, the better I...
- I said I'd post here once I got rid of my credit card.Well, I did it on Wednesday, after 20,000 questions from the bank as to why I didn't want a credit card anymore.This was my first weekend without a credit card, and I must admit, I feel a bit...
- I am about to see a counsellor. Just wondering, how honest I have to be?I am prepared to be 100% honest about gambling, but I wonder if I have to reveal somewhat embarassing things, like how I see prostitutes, have a mediocre relationship with my...
- I am sure that, although it may be rare, there are times when we decide to leave the casino with a win (and eventually come back for more only to lose). So I want to know...How do you feel when you walk out the casino with a win? Do you still feel...
- I did it again. I'm sorry. I blew another $1000 tonight.I feel dirty, angry. Why do I keep doing this to myself? Why? I have decided that I will be closing my credit card account - that is the source of my gambling funds.I just want my normal life...
- Was 4 weeks GF and then...Today I was supposed to meet my friends at 4pm to go to a house warming.At about 2pm, I left home with my credit card (because we had to buy a gift, so just in case - and recently I have tried not to carry my credit card...
- Hey, remember me? The guy who said he could never return to the casino because he had been overpaid and didn't want to get caught?Well, almost 5 months later, I relapsed. The urge was too great. I returned with my friend, and after being let...
- I recently learned of a friend who discovered he had cancer. He doesn't drink, smoke or do drugs. He is been a model citizen his whole young life (not even 30 yet).It has made me question life in general. Why him? Why not people who have been...
- First off, I'd like to thank Vicky and Tagg for keeping me in mind and keeping in touch. I haven't posted in a while so I figured I'd been forgotten. It always delivers a warm feeling to the heart to find out that someone, somewhere is thinking...
- My streak came to an end today.There were a few things which made me go to the casino today. Things which, at the time I used as reasons or explanations, but in hindsight were just excuses. These include:- I felt like the caring had stopped a bit...
- I'm about 47 days GF now, can't remember exact number as I've lost count, which I suppose is a good thing. Had some small urges here and there, although last night, armed with my credit card (I had plans to buy work shoes) my urges were stronger...
- Now 35 days GF...I had reason to flick through my old credit card invoices, and seeing the balances of negative $10,000 brought back some memories:- it immediately brought back my feelings in those days of "oh god, when will I ever get rid of this...