eshaw
Status: Doing well, ups and downs, such is life. Sober and healthy, working on happiness.
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- I ran into my ex-eating disorder counselor today on the street on my way to school. She looked down and ran past me pretending not to see me. I understand I dropped out of treatment but it felt so demeaning and uncomfortable. And of course led me to...
- I can't tolerate being around people. The most I've worked in the past 4 years has been 30 hours a week, unpaid for my practicum, since January. I was offered a job but I can't handle the constant pressure & anxiety. I escape to my car 3 times a day...
- I posted this in two other groups. I'd love any feedback, and hope I can figure out how to change:So I have paid attention to my thinking a lot lately and I am driving myself insane. Every thought I have is self-destructive or a put down of myself....
- So I have paid attention to my thinking a lot lately and I am driving myself insane. Every thought I have is self-destructive or a put down of myself. I catch myself doing it, fearful of everything, so totally negative. I am allowing these thoughts...
- I took yesterday off work due to a cold. The time off work created intense anxiety about going back today. So today I woke up with extreme nausea and panic. I'm not sure if I'm really sick or if its all anxiety but I feel like I'm going to be sick...
- I have a teenage daughter to support, I am battling eating disorder symptoms, depression and anxiety. I have been living with my mom, at age 36, rent free for 3 years now. I am almost done with school but due to my severe social anxiety I feel...
- I won't get into specifics but I've been engaging in my ED a lot lately. I have eaten little in days. And as destructive as it is I feel really good about it ever since a doc appointment the other day and I saw I'm losing weight. I feel more...
- I made a huge mistake today and talked to my doctor about my feelings of hopelessness and wanting to end my life after I graduate. Not sure why. Maybe I'm searching for help before its too late and others are hurt by my inability to keep surviving....
- I've had major depression for almost 20 years. I've tried all sorts of meds. Been to several therapists over the years, felt relief for short periods but it always comes back and I'm tired. I'm tired of mental illness disabling me. I also struggle...
- Been over 24 hours since my last drink. I am having extreme anxiety and feeling extremely nauseated. I promised myself I won't drink tonight and so far I am keeping that promise but I feel jittery, can't calm down, my chest is tight and I don't know...
- I'm freaking out inside and I feel like I'm having a heart attack. I am 24 hours without a drink now and I have the jitters but I'm doing everything I can to stay sober tonight. My daughter is home and I promised myself I will no longer drink with...
- I'm really battling shame. Every single time I eat I feel so ashamed. I feel ashamed that I am still eating, ashamed that I have an appetite, ashamed that I am not doing better at restricting. I hate these feelings, I want them to go away but no...
- I got on facebook today and saw a picture of my friend. She was my first, and only, sponsor. She changed my life in a short amount of time & helped me to get sober when I quit drinking/doing drugs the first time. She was passionate about recovery,...
- I am a number of "labels" to which I could subscribe to several different groups. And have, some of them. Yet I don't feel comfortable posting much in any one group because I don't feel that is my total problem. I chose this group tonight because...
- This is something I never figured out in counseling. And since I left tx I've cross-addicted with things I've never done before. Just curious for those of you who have sought help, why do you think you have an eating disorder? Someone at work, a...