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I posted this in two other groups. I'd love any feedback, and hope I can figure out how to change:
So I have paid attention to my thinking a lot lately and I am driving myself insane. Every thought I have is self-destructive or a put down of myself. I catch myself doing it, fearful of everything, so totally negative. I am allowing these thoughts and this thinking to affect my behavior, I want to replace it with positive thoughts but I just really have a hard time convincing myself anything positive about myself is true. Am I making sense? I am so scared of this life, mostly because I have an inner critic telling me 24/7 that I am incapable of being successful, being normal, being sane, being loveable, being a partner, a mother, a friend. I have isolated myself and created this my reality in which I can be right about being all these things. I hope I'm making sense. Its a frightening world that I live in, in my mind and I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I try to catch myself in this self-perpetuating cycle but my anxiety and fear are so intense that I find myself running from any possible difficulty. I am typing to fast to know if I'm making sense. I just realized this. How do I break this horrible habit and bring peace to my sick head?
So I have paid attention to my thinking a lot lately and I am driving myself insane. Every thought I have is self-destructive or a put down of myself. I catch myself doing it, fearful of everything, so totally negative. I am allowing these thoughts and this thinking to affect my behavior, I want to replace it with positive thoughts but I just really have a hard time convincing myself anything positive about myself is true. Am I making sense? I am so scared of this life, mostly because I have an inner critic telling me 24/7 that I am incapable of being successful, being normal, being sane, being loveable, being a partner, a mother, a friend. I have isolated myself and created this my reality in which I can be right about being all these things. I hope I'm making sense. Its a frightening world that I live in, in my mind and I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I try to catch myself in this self-perpetuating cycle but my anxiety and fear are so intense that I find myself running from any possible difficulty. I am typing to fast to know if I'm making sense. I just realized this. How do I break this horrible habit and bring peace to my sick head?
For myself, when negative thoughts start, I flash a huge STOP! sign in my head, take some deep breaths and tell myself that I'm a good person and deserve good things.
I find talking and journalling or writing helps get the "chatter" of the mind out... keep it simple and try it even if it feels silly or unhelpful at first.
As Fig says definitely talking to a professional helps but not everyone has access to this resource.
Coming here and being honest is a great way to "get it out". Keep posting.
((( Big hugs ))) to you both - remember, you matter here!
Kim x