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Why did I trust her too much?

eshaw
eshaw
I made a huge mistake today and talked to my doctor about my feelings of hopelessness and wanting to end my life after I graduate. Not sure why. Maybe I'm searching for help before its too late and others are hurt by my inability to keep surviving. I don't know what to do. I love and never want to hurt my daughter but I feel like my life is complete. I've achieved all I hoped to accomplish and I can't tolerate living this way any longer. I wish I hadn't told my doc now but she was asking a lot of questions and I allowed her to get my true feelings out of me. I don't want to get locked up again, but in some ways it feels like the only way to save me from myself. I will keep pushing myself to move on, I have to make it through this month. I have to graduate college. I have to prove I accomplished something in this life. But I am terrified of what comes next. I fear the future.
Community LeaderThePepperMan
ThePepperMan
Sometimes we get so attached to a phase of our life that we can't see what happens after it ends. College can be like that.

Please accept that you are not alone in facing the end of your college days. Others have gotten through the transition from student to post student activities.

Keep putting one foot in front of the other, you will get there.
koolman
koolman
Hmmm...the goal-oriented mentality...I can relate. Sure, there's always a sort of post-pardum depression, the horrible feelings of emptiness and withdrawal, after one has accomplished some big, complex task that one has poured one's mind, heart and soul into for so long...movie director Robert Zemeckis said this of completing the movie Forrest Gump. He said, after pouring all his love, his very being, into the project for over a year, within 12 hours, it was yanked out of his hands and released to theaters and he sank into a deep depression. I'm sure many directors, Steven Spielberg included, go through this same thing, and that's why they can't sit idle for too long before they take on and plan the next movie project.

If you can't reach higher, reach deeper, or broader, or zig-zag. There's always some new mission to accomplish in this life, some new area to explore. It could be going on some new physical adventure, exploring some new wonder of the world. It might just be spending more time with your daughter, deepening that relationship.