eshaw
Status: Doing well, ups and downs, such is life. Sober and healthy, working on happiness.
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- I wrote a post, must have taken too long. Good and numb tonight. Alone. Always alone. Disconnected from everyone and everything. Lacking purpose and value and emotions. Just tired. Tired of coping day to day just to exist. Unable to be in...
- So, I feel really ashamed to bring this up. But I don't know what to do. My daughter is 14, the past year maybe longer she has changed her eating habits dramatically. She limits the amount she eats during dinner, takes food to school but brings it...
- I woke up late in a panic with a pounding headache. I immediately stressed about what I was going to say going into work late. I got showered and dressed but I felt huge fear about being so late. I e-mailed my boss (I don't have her number) and told...
- My drinking is out of control. I lost count of how many drinks I had last night and I've had severe chills and nausea all day. I blacked out. I know I need to stop and stop soon before I kill myself. I am hiding my drinking and its not ok. I am too...
- I keep getting warned that I shouldn't drink more than 2 alcoholic beverages with Coumadin. However, I drink 4-10 beers a night. My blood tests go up and down but otherwise I've never had a problem and I'm not taking this "internal or injurious"...
- So petty, really. To think I let a cupcake ruin my day. I have done well at avoiding sweets, I don't even really like cupcakes. A cookie, that's a different story. I ate the damn cupcake. I didn't even enjoy it. As I'm sure you all know much too...
- My anxiety was off the chart tonight. I totally bombed a presentation I had to give, mind went blank, adrenaline kicked in and I stopped half way thru because I couldn't keep going. Bad night. Not cool. In front of all my peers in school. So...
- After 3 months I finally decided to let the doctor weigh me today. I left treatment and have been managing my weight on my own. I am pleased I've been able to maintain the weight I left with even though I felt like I've gained 30 lbs. I am relieved...
- I have tried so many anti-depressants over the past 20 years and never found one that worked until the last few months. My doc has me on 120 mg of Cymbalta a day and my depression has lifted tremendously. First time I haven't routinely felt suicidal...
- Hi. I've struggled with severe anxiety for years. I went back to work after several years of being isolated and I am in a job where I must engage with people all day long. My anxiety seems to be under control most of the time but I am extremely...
- I was in a room full of women today at lunch break and someone brought up the topic of sex toys. I became anxious but the more they talked and went into detail I finally jumped up and basically ran out of the room. I couldn't tolerate it. Had to go...
- So... I haven't been in a relationship in 4 years. I had a child with my ex-husband then was with a woman for 8 years. I love her and miss her like crazy, however we separated 4 years ago. I don't have any desire to start dating again, and wouldn't...
- My 14 year old daughter asked me to tuck her in tonight. She turned on a cd I've been playing her since the day she was born. I always say yes when she asks if I'll "cuddle for a song" because it is rare since she's gotten older. I am grateful she...
- Hi. I'm new here and unsure if I have PTSD or not. 3 therapists have diagnosed me with it but I always mistrust them because I never feel as if I have suffered enough to have this diagnosis. I have been sexually, physically and emotionally abused....
- I have had DVT 3 times, my left leg has been affected the most. I have been told my case is too chronic to try stunting or other methods and may be MayThurners ??syndrome causing me to keep getting them. The last clot I had was from my ankle to my...