Alex-Scott

Theres a new song from Fun which really strikes a chord with me, especially the part that says "What do I stand for? Most nights I don't know..."All day Friday I thought about gambling, I was looking...

Life is so full of ups and downs, so busy all the time it feels like I have no time to do any of the things I need to do! I am getting frustrated and a little depressed the last two days, its been...

Amazing what 2 days can do! I am much more positive today than I have been for weeks, and I am not simply "trying" to quit, I am committed and I am exorcising it from my soul!!!I am being productive...

I dont see the light at the end of the tunnel but I have to believe its there. I watched AGT last night and there was a guy on there that said as a recovering alcoholic that you just have to try and...

I feel helpless, as many people have said on here. I thought I was doing "well" a few weeks ago when I put together a nice little period of time without gambling... well the result in the last 4...

Look not behind but to the future. Who knows what great things may come in time once I rid myself of this affliction, this horrible disease.In black and white, my personal accounting shows $4510.46...

I am hurting real bad. Emotionally, physically, spiritually, financially. Who do I have to blame for this but me? Where do I even start?The last two and a half weeks have been...

Time to take a personal inventory... I should be "celebrating" one month without gambling, I should be happy, its Friday and I have two weeks off for vacation starting in about 2 hours!!But should...

Feeling much better today, got a lot of good support on DS from everyone yesterday, and one more day of being gamble free. Not like I really had a chance to gamble yesterday but still every day with...

I feel like it is only "luck" that has allowed me to reach 20 days... I was very close to breaking down last Friday and the only thing that stopped me was the fact I couldn't get the website to take...

Ok, I am not excited that it is monday, I am tired and sore and I dont want to work, but I had a great wknd, and I am feeling really good. I paid some bills and still have outstanding debts but I put...

Today has not been a good day so far, which is very dangerous for me.I was woken up at 5:30am by construction next door, and if there is one thing I hate its lack of sleep and not being able to sleep...

Really struggling today to stay positive... I guess this is the depression, the gambling gives you false hope but its still hope, without it I am resigned to have to work, and put up with my job and...

Just had a good weekend, productive and busy. Spent the wknd with my wife, we celebrated our anniversary, we had a lovely time and it didn't cost much money at all. I was very stressed that I wouldnt...