Up and down

Life is so full of ups and downs, so busy all the time it feels like I have no time to do any of the things I need to do! I am getting frustrated and a little depressed the last two days, its been about a week without gambling and at first it felt good to "get stuff done" but now it is seeming like I can just work all day every day and get nowhere still! I only actually work 4 hours a day at my job right now but I have a commute of 1 hour both ways, and a few odd jobs I do in the afternoon, and lots of cooking, cleaning, unpacking from a move 2 months ago still, looking for work, applying to jobs, trying to figure out what to do with myself because I never have enough money... I want to start a business but cant find any time to focus on writing the business plan (I teach business in college but its part time only lately), I also want to write a book and have started but the days I can write are few and far between too.
Today I got home just after 1 and now its almost 8, I still havent eaten dinner, and I feel like I have been busy all day but not really accomplished anything. I only sent one resume. I watered the grass. I went to the gym. But I can think of about ten things I need to do that I didnt get done :(
That is the danger I face, the desperation and the need for an escape, giving myself some sort of hope even if its false hope for a few hours... But I need to stay strong, I can only hope things get better in a few days it might feel better when I get paid again since I have been scraping by since the last bad trip and stressing about money makes life very difficult too. Sometimes I feel like I am bipolar because I have such highs and lows from one day to the next...