Alex-Scott

tomorrow is the 1...

well the cycle continues, the last few times recently that I have screwed up and went to the casino I actually won, and I knew that by winning I was just being sucked in... nobody can quit gambling...

my shift tonight got cut and I went to the casino... for some silly reason I thought it would be ok. well it very nearly was a disaster. I started fine just playing low stakes poker with some money...

Okay so June is off to a good start so far!I went through an extremely rough week last week, went through some crazy withdrawal I think because I was so depressed, had no energy or motivation, ate a...

Just passed a week... It has been a few months I think since I went that long actually, that I can remember anyways. It has been kinda tough but not too bad, had a few strong urges, but I was busy...

one day I will look back at this and be so happy that I finally quit for good...

these are the months and the days that I will choose to exercise my free will to not gamble!!

played around again today. its kind of like I just keep putting off quitting... like Im too much of a quitter to quit the one thing I should quit. like I am putting off becoming who I should be. Im...

Having a good day so far, enjoyed teaching this morning but ran into the bad voice in my head on the way home today. Last week was good too, had a rough time getting home Friday without giving into...

had a bit of a rough gf wknd, hoping for a good gamble free week... it will be a busy week which is a good thing, lots of work and things to do, things to think about and plan.I still dont know how...

went to the casino even though I knew I had no money, but decided to blow 100 bucks just cuz... using money from a cc no lesslasted about 10 minutes and didnt feel fun at all...

Another day... and I let my negative side get the better of me. Why is it when I don't feel very positive, that I want to really make myself feel even worse?I have to make up my mind, do I want to...

another day, another set of challenges for sure. yesterday was busy and productive, need to do the same thing today! "if you keep doing the right thing enough days in a row"... its amazing what can...

Day 2 almost in the books...Still scared, afraid, unsure of how to get out of this mess, but for now just not making it worse...

Day one...I need to check in every single day! Check in with MYSELF! I am the only one who can do it, I have burned all my bridges and all my supports... its up to me.