maccy
Status: feeling so alone death feels so much better than living
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Well been a while since i wrote in here i dont know why it takes me so long to write another post (sorry jann and guypaul) well iam going to have my lump taken out on saturday 8th march not scared at...
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Well its been a while since i wrote in here .Well got to go for an op to remove a lump from my scrotum i feel like shit all the time and i cant stop being sick i wish i could chnage who iam but i...
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Been to the clinic got to have bloods done and have group therphy well its final iam a nut case i feel so fucking low now what do i tell my family what do i tell my work god i hate being alive it...
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Well goging to eating disorder clinic tomorrow iam so scared of what they gonna say please be here for me torrow anyone plases
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Well i am at the end of willing to carry on with life i cant handle this any more not being able to eat missing my dad i have started to stave myself and trying to cut my fat out with a balde it has...
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Hi everyone just to let ya know iam feeling really bad self harmed loads going out tonight to let my hair down i know i fucking need it counting the days til i go the eating disorder clinic so scared...
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Doctor has started me on new meds feel like shit full all shaky and cold then hot and tied feel really ill off them but i need something to keep me gogin
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Well its been a while since i worte in here last well iam still fighting ith eating cant stand the thought of food now iam having these intense episodes of fear and panic really sacaring me gogin to...
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Well today i feel like shit i know i keep saying it but today i relly do feel so depressed i went to see my doctor and i got no were so i feel alone in this world now if my doctor is not willing to...
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Going to see my doctor later today that shoudl be fun i cant touch anyone now as iam scared i will assordb ther calorires and fat how stupid is that wait till the doctor hears about that lol i cant...
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well i cut my leg today i could not fight the power anymore it felt awfull as my glass i use is blunt so i had to smash a wine glass to get more glass well never mind oh yeah me and my fella are...
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Sat ere vodka in one hand and razor in the other so close to cutting myself not done it for a bit so want to do it.The feeling is so strong adn is taking over my body like a illness all i can see...
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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckthats how iam feelin totally fucking pissed off i have had euff of it all totally pissed off i cant go on like this...
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well today my dad would of been 49 but he is not here i feel like total shit gonna get totelly shitfaced tonight on vodka i know its not the best way but need to block da pain i miss him so much and...
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well it would of been my dads birthday on the 26the september but he aint here how will i get trhought that day iam goign to see my shrink that day two been witing 6 months to see him and i have...
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