well today my dad would of been 49 but he is not here i feel like total shit gonna get totelly shitfaced tonight on vodka i know its not the best way but need to block da pain i miss him so much and want him back seen my shrink too he was no good just kept knodding his head wanted to kick him in da teeth i must praise him tho he is referring me to a eating disorder clinic in l,iverpool so that good news well rant over and still feeling shit but never mind   love you all mac xxxxxxxxx