Going to see my doctor later today that shoudl be fun i cant touch anyone now as iam scared i will assordb ther calorires and fat how stupid is that wait till the doctor hears about that lol i cant ahndle this shit anymore iam on the verge of cracking and i cant stop it at all i wish i could fall into a coma and forget about when i wake up if i die tomorrow it woudl be a fucking god sent just so i could feel no more pain its tearing my sould and mind apart all this shit depression grieveing self harm bulimia fucking everything is pulling me coser and closer to the end i was at the train staiuon before looking at the tracks and i misssed my train and some one come up to me and said its not worth it please dont do it and gave me a kiss and said it will all be ok he is watching over you and he misses you and that he loves you so much and he is sorry i dont know if i was imagining thijgs or sthat person was really there but once i lifted my head they was gone kind of made me feel warm inside for some reason dont know why never mind well best be off need showere and to get ready to see my doctor
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so sorry things are so bad hon....keep fighting your doing a great job....there is an end to all this, have faith and be positive....lots of love...jann
I am so sorry you are hurting so much. I am here for you Love Rose