DawnRanae

Well did pretty much all of my shopping yesterday. Me and the H where shopping for 4 hours. He has been going every place with me to I guess reassure me where he is and to try and spend more time...

Today went really well at work I was able to not let my mind wonder. When I got home my H greeted me with love, hugs and kiss~perfect:) But there is a problem with him and my 16 year old son. My son...

Today I feel very emotional. Very angry on how my marriage has turned out. So easy for him to just forget. Or as far as I know he could still be in contact woth the OW. How can I know for sure? Today...

Today just didn't seem right this morning from the get go. Maybe it was just me thinking my H was in a off mood or he really was. I can usually can tell since we have lived together for years. I...

The day didn't start very well because my H was upset with my last journal post. I tried to explain to him that there would be times that I just needed to vent and say somethings so that I would feel...

Well it is Wednesday night and I am irritated. I guess that comes with the territory of dealing with your loved ones infidelity. I find myself thinking of the OW~I mean home wrecker:) All the how she...

I dont know why I feel the way I do. My H consumes my mind. Why do I even want him? Why does he seem so special to me after what he's done? I should hate him with passion. But instead I love him with...

Today is my youngest child's birthday. My daughter turned into a teenager today. I think the day turn out well for her but not so well for me and her dad. But thank goodness she didn't really notice....

Today seemed to start out ok. But the H was fighting anger issues all day. I thought he was keeping them under control and everything would be fine. Well my drunk brother stopped over and asked for a...

Today I thought started out really well. Then my mind wouldn't let the A rest. Was at work by 7am and by 10:30 the anxiety started to kick into over drive. It consumed me today and I hated it. Felt...

Will I ever trust him again? I don't  think I will ever trust him as I did before. Every time he goes some place the thought will pop into my mind is he telling the truth about where he is going? If...

I asked him today to take the OW of his e-mail acct. and that went bad. He says he is doing everything in his power to make things better and I just keep bring things up cause I don't trust him. Then...

Hoping for a good day as I prey for everyday. I find myself so needy for affection from my husband. He don't mind and it seems genuine but heck what do I know. I guess that's what scares me. To go...

Yesterday I was so eager to start my counseling. I know that it would not be a miracle answer and they can't tell me what to do but they can help me decide to make the best decision for me. Yesterday...

After work today will be my first counseling session. Hoping that work goes better than yesterday. Funny how a song that i loved (Boys of Fall) came on the radio and just cut into me. Each friday...