DawnRanae

Sitting here on my day off in the quite sipping on coffee. Feeling depressed and nor motivated to do much. Seems like efforts to do things are useless. Same old daily tasks taking up my time. Tons of...

Today my negative thoughts are more so at the back of my mind. Maybe trying to peek through here and there just a bit. Hopefully I won't have to many things to trigger anything. Lets just see how...

Seems that lately I am surrounded by this cloud of darkness. Like I can't be happy or content and I really don't like being this way. Not sure about anything anymore. I don't know who I've become. I...

Today was just a negative day for me. I hate days like this when my mind won't rest. Mad about everything. Unhappy and angry. Hoping for a better day tomorrow..

I feel that I have lost what might be the idea of normal. How can you trust again after you invest every bit of your heart in someone and they betray you in the deepest way? First my husband that I...

I feel we live in this world of illusions. Illusions of what we want or of what we expect things to be. In every direction things could be nothing more than deceiving. We may dream of the white...

Oh my I have not written since January. Partly because I am ashamed that I had found out once more H was talking to her. I told him to leave but he wouldnt leave because he knew that I had enough. So...

I downloaded a keylogger on my computer yesterday and it didn't take him untill last night when I gave my sons girlfriend a ride home for him to be trying to get ahold of the OW...Saying he misses...

I have to say things have been perfect with how my H has been acting. The scary thing is how long will it last? My dream come true would be that it never ends. We have done more talking since the...

What can I do about how I feel so anger a lot of the time. It is because I think of him deceiving me and all the lies. I can look back and see all the details of the deception and it makes me...

Well just a little up date while I am on my lunch break. Oh DS what would I do with out you? I love having the chance to get out my feelings.My H is going over the top..so much more than last month...

What a crazy confusing couple of days. I guess I left off on Christmas day after I had called the OW and had not confronted my H about the new photo or me calling his other lover(soul mate is what...

Well first of all Merry Christmas to everyone:) On to the new development. Last night after me and my H (made love) I couldn't sleep..of course he could. So at 4 am I got on the computer. With my...

Well did pretty much all of my shopping yesterday. Me and the H where shopping for 4 hours. He has been going every place with me to I guess reassure me where he is and to try and spend more time...

Today went really well at work I was able to not let my mind wonder. When I got home my H greeted me with love, hugs and kiss~perfect:) But there is a problem with him and my 16 year old son. My son...