I'm so angry
Today I feel very emotional. Very angry on how my marriage has turned out. So easy for him to just forget. Or as far as I know he could still be in contact woth the OW. How can I know for sure? Today is really hard. I don't feel like I want to hug all over him like a few days ago. I want to say f~ you, you son of a b~!!!!!!!!!!! But yet I still love him. He acts as if he could leave at any point with out a problem. I just feel so pissed thinking about him and what he did with her.....makes me sick!!! He probably told her we were going to get a divorce and how horrible I was.Poor pitaful f~ing him. The counselor say I shouldn't think about things that no good come from. Well I think I need to exspress myself. Yesterday me and H where sitting on the couch and I made the comment that I couldn't get in the Holiday spirit. He said why because you have not went shopping yet? I said no just cuz everything thats going on. And He rolled his eyes....seriously! I just can't forget...I wasn't even throwing anything in his face but hell no I am not aloud to bring it up or hurt over it. OK now that I deleted him as my friend so I can actually vent with worrying weither it upsets him. Thanks for reading and letting me exspress myself and what a bad day I am having.