I guess I'm feeling better.

I'm trying to make myself feel better by changing my reaction to certain things. Events that happened to me a while ago when I was little were horrible. They effected me too much and still do. I try to avoid doing certain things or avoid certain topics to talk about because it makes me a little more depressed and I don't like getting depressed.
Every year I try to get better with those things that I avoid. I actually try to go up to them and not be afraid of them anymore. So, I haven't stopped trying. I try not to give up. It's really difficult to not give up when I'm all alone with this.
My boyfriend supports me, but I know that he's getting tired of it. I really don't know what to do about him. He always tells me to tell him anything that's wrong. But, I don't want to rely on him for every emotional thing.  
I've been trying to be better. Just have a difficult time doing this by myself.